Noelle Gray

Former 446 lbs obese gal who lost 226 lbs and counting turned 84 + kilo USAPL powerlifter. At 45 years old, my life is just beginning ❀

Bench day #1 done....3 training days left and 11 days out!!! Went great today, first 2 attempts at 135 and 140 went up great, no spotter. My final at 145 was a bit sketchy- I had a bit of help on the way up from a spotter....but something tells me I'll be able to get it up at the meet with all the adrenaline and emotion I'll be feeling. I'm not going to play it safe- this is about giving everything I have and truly pushing myself. If it doesn't go up, it doesn't go up- I won't hang my head or be upset if I fail because I'll know in my heart I left it all on the bench and can walk away with my head held high. Which is exactly how I'll both go into and come out of the meet. I won't have failed anything- I will have done something I set out to do 7 months ago, as a total newbie to powerlifting, not knowing what the hell I was doing, despite people telling me my numbers suck and I should be lifting more, that I'm too old, etc. I could care less about bullshit people say. This meet is for my mom and myself, not the shit talkers πŸ’› If you have a goal or dream, go after it!! Don't let fear tell you you can't. ❀ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #fromobesetopowerlifter #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift
After 15 minutes of hiding in my shorts and convincing myself I didn't care what anyone thought of what I looked like in my singlet, I finally said "screw it," and started deadlifting in my singlet. At first I just wanted to hide because there were a few snickers from some of the guys. Then as I kept putting more weight on the bar, I heard no more snickering or laughing. Whether it was because they stopped or I just didn't hear them, (or because they couldn't lift what I was lifting πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚) I didn't care. I did my thing and practiced my attempts. Minute by minute I got more ok being in it until I was walking around between attempts not caring what anyone thought. I'm proud to say what was once my heaviest lift, 225 lbs, will now be my opener. Again, I know that's many powerlifters warm ups, but I have every right to be proud of that number. My focus is on how far I've come, not how much I have yet to go πŸ’› 17 days out, just 6 training sessions to go!β€πŸ’› #believe #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #fromobesetopowerlifter #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #usapowerlifter #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapl #squat #bench #deadlift
Singlet week! Coach wanted me to wear it this week to the gym to get used to lifting in it, so I wore my singlet to the gym for the first time. I wasn't super comfortable in it, which is why my shorts are still on. Tomorrow I will need to take them off, as the rest of the week is lifts I will actually be doing in competition, so I don't get the security of shorts, like I did today with standing military press day. Today was kind of getting used to it. I made baby steps today. Tomorrow is no choice but to wear it like I will in competition. This is where I need to bring the mentality that I don't care what people may think or say. I just need to focus on my lifting like I've been doing for the past 7 months and block out the bullshit. πŸ’›β€ This is the time I look to my inspirations, like @bubblypowerlifter , @prettystrongbec , @reneeniz , and @anastasiakokkas . These are bad ass powerlifters who could care less what others think of them. They do their thing and lift heavy shit and block out any negativity. One of the many reasons i look up to them ❀ Just 9 training days left!! Finally reached the single digits!!! β€πŸ’› #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #meetprep #fromobesetopowerlifter #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #squat #bench #deadlift #powerlifting #powerlifter
Failure and victory..... Today was all about finding my attempts for squat. I worked up to 190, then asked a random guy for a PR attempt at 215. I squatted down, then let fear take over. I literally froze at the bottom of the squat and let fear win. I bailed out miserably. The guy rolled his eyes and told me "truth be told, you're too heavy to squat this kind of weight. You couldn't even stand up. I'd drop way down if I were you." Then he walked away. Well. Fuck you, sir. I know exactly what happened. I chose to let fear tell me the weight was too heavy and I couldn't do it. I dropped to 210 and asked a different guy for a spot (I have no shame or fear of asking people for a spot) This guy was much nicer and told me not to listen to that ass (he was standing 3 feet away at the other squat rack) Tried 210 and I failed miserably again. Again I allowed fear be the loudest voice I heard. Froze at the bottom and bailed yet again. So back to 205 I went. Failed again and again and again. I let that asshole guy and fear get in my head. All I heard was "you're too fat, too weak, not strong enough, etc" I did not train my heart out the last 7 months to come down to the last 2 weeks of training before my first meet to let fear win. Again and again I failed. Finally I reset myself and asked my mom to be with me, to give me the strength to not listen to fear. I sat and thought of how many times I gave up in my life because the fear was too much. I remembered everything Corissa taught me. And I tried again. I blocked out everything but my mother's voice and Corissa's. And hit 205 πŸ’› Fear is a bitch and a liar. It will lie to you and tell you you can't over and over again. It will tell you you're too this or that. If you let it, it will take over. Be stronger than fear. You OWE it to yourself to kick that bitch in the face and knock her down. If you can't the first time, keep trying until you can. 205 lbs is many powerlifters warm up. At one time, maybe 205 was their best. I can't compare myself to those who have been on their journey longer than myself. I care that I gave my best today and beat fear. πŸ’› #believe #usapl #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #meetprep
SO ecstatic right now!!! Just a week or so ago I hit 140 but needed a spot to get it I hit it with NO spotter and it went up so much better!!! Then I decided to try 145. I grabbed a spotter and tried it. I wouldn't say i failed, i did get it up with some help from my spotter. It wouldn't be a legal competition lift, but that's ok! Not too long ago I hit 135 with a spotter. Today I hit 145 with a spotter- 10 lbs more!!!! 135 has been my dream lift for years. When I started powerlifting 6 months ago I was only benching 105. Now I'm hitting 145. I remember wishing how much I'd love to open my first meet at 135, but I never thought it was possible...i didn't think i could go up 40 pounds in my bench in just 6 months...Especially at 45 years old. Guess what my opener will be in 3 weeks? 135. Pretty sure no one at the gym understands why I was dancing around the bench in joy with tears running down my cheeks, but maybe they do.....anyone who has ever accomplished something they set out to do will understand πŸ’›β€ Thank you #jenthompson132 ..... I've watched your bench videos thousands of times for proper technique. Below is the video of 140 and 145 (the 145 is with the spotter) There is much to clean up technique wise and I have 2 more bench sessions to do so. But for now, I'm going to enjoy this moment because I've worked so hard for it. Anyone can make their goals and dreams come true....just trust and believe in yourself and ignore anyone who has shit to say about you. They're just jealous they don't have the heart to do what you do ❀ #believe #fromobesetopowerlifter #usapowerlifter #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift
No such thing as too old! Go after your goals and dreams no matter your age, weight, gender, or color. Everyone deserves to chase their dreams ❀ One of my dreams is 23 days out. I can't wait to stand on those lifting platforms and give everything I have.
250 lb deadlift PR!!! First attempt I failed- couldn't get it past my shins and had to drop it. Then I took a little break, reset, grabbed my bottle of nose tork, and tried again. This time I hit it....I did hitch at my knees because the bar stuck thanks to the humidity, but it felt much easier than the first attempt πŸ’›πŸ’› Super pumped, going to try for 260-270 next week!! Every failure is a learning experience, and you get up, dust off, and try again. Not too bad for a 45 year old with shit knees and only 6 months of powerlifting experience!! P.S... no, that's not a video πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ It's a still of the video I took #believe #fromobesetopowerlifter #meetprep #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #usapl #usaplmichigan #powerlifting #powerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift
The countdown begins!!! Just 11 training days left before my first was standing military press day and I hit an all time 95 lb PR, which is 20 lbs more than my previous best of 75 lbs back in March πŸ’›πŸ’› This isn't a competition lift, but its really helped me in the ones that are. Tomorrow is deadlift day, and I'll need to figure out what my 3 attempts will be, so I'll be trying 300 lbs tomorrow. Even if I can't pull it tomorrow, something tells me with all the emotion and adrenaline of my first meet, I'll be able to.....even though my max right now is 240. But even if I fail it at the meet, I'm going to give it my all, because my mom deserves the best I have, but just as importantly, so do I ❀ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #fromobesetopowerlifter #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift
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Especially at Costco πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
Thank you to @sbd.usa for permission to add a memorial phrase to my mom on your shirt. πŸ’›πŸ’›β€β€
Squat day! Today was about not giving up even through frustration. I did my working sets to depth, then I started heavy singles. When 205 came around, I just froze. I couldn't hit depth to save my life. I came so close, but my butt never actually touched the ball. I mentally froze. It was like once I hit 200 lbs, the fear and doubt set in. My body was telling me "nope, it's over 200 lbs, too heavy, you can't do it." Over and over I tried 205- I did at least 12 singles, coming so close to touching that ball, but never doing it. I was determined to get it right no matter how many times I had to do it. It was hot, my quads were killing me, and I couldn't even get my SBD knee sleeves on because it was so humid and sticky. But I was not leaving that damned gym until I hit it. Finally I looked up towards the sky (ceiling) and asked my mom to give me strength for this one last try (I had to surrender the squat rack, people asked me to use it and I'd been on 2 hours) I remembered everything my friend Corissa told me. And I believed. And I did it πŸ’›πŸ’›πŸ’› After 12 tries at 205, I finally hit depth. I cried exhausted tears, but they were also tears of pride. I pushed through the fear, the doubt, the pain, the heat, and finally did it... Does this make me special? Oh hell no. I'm no different than anyone else. ANYONE can do this. We all have the capability to push past fear and doubt. If you want something bad enough, you WILL achieve it. Don't be afraid to fail. It will happen. I failed 12 freaking times today. 12 FREAKING TIMES with 205 lbs on my back. But keep going, keep trying. There's so much to be learned with every failure. It also makes the victory that much sweeter. ❀❀ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift #fromobesetopowerlifter
Bench day! Did 135 as my top set of 1 and was surprised at how much easier it was. Moved so much faster than the first time I attempted it. I videoed it and compared it with the first time I lifted 135 and it was a huge difference. All the day in and day out training is definitely paying off....couldn't love anything more πŸ’› #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #meetprep #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #fromobesetopowerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift #powerlifting #powerlifter #girlswholiftheavy
Final phase of my training before my first meet has begun!!! 5/3/1 reps, heavy standing military press day. Spent but proud of my effort. Only a few of us here this morning- the humidity is stifling, even at 530 am because this gym is on the second floor above a heated pool. But no excuses, just keep hydrated and give the best I can. πŸ’›πŸ’› 33 days out! #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #fromobesetopowerlifter #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #squat #bench #deadlift
Walking through Dunhams Sporting goods at the mall (not looking at weights or workout clothes or powerlifting gear, mind you) πŸ˜‚ and my Facebook messenger notification goes off. It was from a friend I chat with occasionally..she basically said she "didn't want me to take this the wrong way, but I'm getting up there in age and am I sure I want to keep powerlifting against people younger than me?" I was then treated to reasons why I probably couldn't squat right to begin with (she's a nurse) and that it was a nice idea and everything, but she just didn't want to see me embarrassed or hurt and overweight 45 year olds should just stop trying to play a young person's sport. Well. fuck that.. 1) Yep, I'm 45. Yes, I'll be competing against people half my age in powerlifting, but there is a masters class for us "old folks" So please go continue your registration for the AARP and sit on your ass and watch the world pass you by, while I register for the AARP (in 10 years) in one hand and a powerlifting meet with the other hand. 2) I couldn't love anything more than I do powerlifting. It has gotten into my heart and soul like only very few things have ever been able to. It completes me. It literally has made me a new and better person. It's made me more self confident. Its brought me triumphs i can't even explain. Yes, there have been many failures, but I just pick my damn self up and do it again until I can get it better 3) Yes, I'm overweight, which doesn't really help my squats. But I can hit legal competition depth with a hell of a lot of weight on my back. As I drop weight, squatting will be easier and easier. My entire life has been spent either hiding from bullies teasing me about my weight, enduring the bullying, quitting things so I wouldn't be bullied, or watching from the sidelines while everyone else DID. I plan to powerlift until my body can't do it any more. At the rate I'm going, hopefully that's a long way off. I'll give it my all because that's what you do when you love something. Anyone who has things to say about my weight or age can continue watching from the couch or chair or wherever they spout their shit from πŸ’› #girlswhopowerlift
And with that, deload week comes to an end....if its intended purpose was to get me even more fired up, it succeeded!! I'm even more fired up and loving this than beforeπŸ’› Deload squat day went great, used my ball and hit depth on every freaking squat!!! My top set was only 135, but it moved smooth and clean with no pitching forward. I did find my heels coming up a bit off the floor, which is a no no and must be worked on, but otherwise a great workout!! 95 in the gym with the humidity, because there's no air conditioning, but who cares? The little hole I accidentally ripped in my tights above my knee provided some ventilation πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ A little over 4 weeks out!!!!! #believe #fromobesetopowerlifter #usapl #usaplmichigan #meetprep #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #squat #bench #deadlift #powerlifting #powerlifter
Deload week continues with bench day :) My top set today was 85 lbs, which is normally my first set. I really wanted to lift more, but I understand the reason for this deload week- it was a mental struggle to walk away from the bench and not give 135 or 140 a try, since probably 140 will be my third attempt on bench at the meet. I had so much left in the tank and really was itching to go heavier since I had a rough night last night and am struggling mentally this morning, and lifting heavy always helps get my mind right again, but I did the smart thing and racked the weights. 37 days out...can't believe it's so close! I don't know if I've said it yet, but I'm so thankful for the encouragement and support I get on my powerlifting journey. I'm really glad I've chronicled it since day one- the highs and lows, and the struggles and triumphs. It hurts me more than I can say that my biggest supporter is now gone, but I'm thankful I have support. Even through the darkest times in life, there's always something to be thankful for πŸ’› Plus cool shirts from @girlswhopowerlift 😁😁😁 #believe #fromobesetopowerlifter #meetprep #powerlifting #powerlifter #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #squat #bench #deadlift
Thanks again, @gwpl for making the most awesome shirts! Proud to support your company and will always uplift and lift heavy πŸ’› Can't wait till my next training session on Thursday to wear this!! #girlswhopowerlift #gwplgear
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