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📍VA ᯽Writer • INFJ ᯽Patient Advocate & Ambassador ᯽Chronic Migraine/Fibro/RA/EDS/Chiari/POTS/BP/DID — Turning pain into purpose & wounds into wisdom

“We can know only that we know nothing. And that is the highest degree of human wisdom.” - Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace
Not sure why this piece from #AllenGinsburg resonates with me right now, but it does, so I’m going to roll with it. Happy #Friday 💕
“I look around the room and can't help but think about how it is the little things we look back on in life. I wonder how often people think that they should pay more attention to them.” - Erika Lance
#Monday #thoughts , brought to you by #MayaAngelou 🌙☀️
#HappyMothersDay to the most amazing #Mom I could ever ask for 💕 Especially over the last year with lots of trying times in my personal life, you have been there for me with unwavering support and love and I’m so thankful for that! 🙏🏻 I’m so grateful to have grown up with a mom for a best friend, and as an adult also calling you my best friend for life. I love you so much, Momma! 🌷
I’ve been seeing SO many people share this from @yung_pueblo the last couple weeks and it’s for good reason. IT’S #TRUTH ✔️ This evening I had to go back and remind someone, PROVE to someone all over again, someone who knows me well, the harsh reality of my #chronicillness and the limitations that are caused by it. I had to give REASON for my saying “NO.” I should not have done that. I should never have to do that. Friends, I want you to know a little something: “No.” is a complete, full sentence. Period. You do not owe anyone your explanations for “No.” Focus on your #healing , on your #rest , on your #selflove , on your EVERYTHING. Your authentic, beautiful self is enough. You. Are. Enough. And I need to remember: I am #enough , too. 💕
“If I only could explain How much I miss that precious moment when I was free from the shackles of chronic pain.” - Jenni Johanna Toivonen 🍃
I’ve always loved this #quote , but the reason didn’t become quite so clear to me until this past weekend. Now I’m working on turning my #lessons into #blessings . 💕 Happy #SelfCareSunday
“Pain is a pesky part of being human. I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” - C. JoyBell
I’ve been going through some tough stuff recently and haven’t mentioned it here (or to anyone really until today), but could use everyone’s prayers, healing, good vibes, or what have you. I promise to always be transparent and honest with you all and I will touch on the topic soon enough but for now I just need to figure things out by myself and I know you all can and will respect that. Much love, xo 🌸🐇
A day of wedding planning calls for a white chocolate #latte ☕️ got a lot accomplished today, feeling better about how the plans are going, and definitely can’t wait until October 13th! 😍💍
I finished this book a few days ago and I still can’t get over how AMAZING it was, and also how I waited SO long to read it. If you haven’t read The Secret History by Donna Tartt, drop everything you’re doing and read it. 📖 Because when you do you won’t let yourself have time for anything else anyway. This was one of those books where I grew emotionally attached to the characters and felt totally lost when I finished reading the last page. I’ve been in a post-book daze 😭 This whole book was just so brilliant. Actually, Donna Tartt is brilliant too. Her other literary works are equally as incredible. 💕
Here's another poem, like all others before and after, dedicated to you. There isn't anything left to be said but I will spend my life trying to put you into words. You who is every goodness, every optimism and hope. Your love is a better fate for me than anything I could wish for. If you are a part of me, then you’re the best part. And if you're separate from me, then you are my destination. But I’ve become a weary traveller, so please, let us never be apart. - Kamand Kojouri
I’m a bit late posting this on here, but we lost my Uncle Chuckie last night. We never know how much time we have with a person. (If you swipe left, this photo was the last photo of (most of) us together.) His passing wasn’t unexpected, and we‘d been preparing ourselves for the last few days despite this all happening fast, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. We are just glad he is no longer in pain. I will always remember Chuckie for the absolutely hilarious fella he was. For his free spirit. His unapologetic attitude. His heart of gold. He always knew how to make anybody laugh. And as a kid, I was always so gullible—he could make me believe anything. His favorite song was “What a Wonderful World” by Louis Armstrong and will be played at his funeral... so this song has been giving me comfort. I know he is truly in a wonderful world now, away from his suffering. 💕 “I see trees of green, red roses too. I see ‘em bloom, for me and for you. And I think to myself... What a wonderful world.” 🍃🎶
“From the dim regions beyond the mountains at the upper end of our encircled domain, there crept out a narrow and deep river, brighter than all save the eyes of Eleonora; and, winding stealthily about in mazy courses, it passed away, at length, through a shadowy gorge, among hills still dimmer than those whence it had issued. We called it the "River of Silence"; for there seemed to be a hushing influence in its flow. No murmur arose from its bed, and so gently it wandered along, that the pearly pebbles upon which we loved to gaze, far down within its bosom, stirred not at all, but lay in a motionless content, each in its own old station, shining on gloriously forever.” - Edgar Allan Poe, Eleonora
Today is #WorldBipolarDay 💚🎗 I’ve had diagnosed #bipolardisorder for some years now but hadn’t started opening up about it until the last year or so. I was embarrassed, frightened, ashamed, and what have you when it came to the topic of #bipolar disorder. I thought I was such a failure. I thought I couldn’t live a “normal” #life , whatever that is. I looked at myself in the light of how the media portrays bipolar disorder—crazy, unkempt, chaotic, etc. But more recently I’ve realized that I shouldn’t care what others think. That instead, I should tell my story unapologetically, tell the raw, honest side to my condition to raise #awareness and let others in my boat feel like they aren’t so alone. Because at one time, I felt extremely, horribly alone and that in itself is so damaging to anyone, not just those of us with a #mentalillness . Fortunately I’ve found amazing friends who fight this battle daily, I’ve joined #support groups, and more recently I’ve become an #Ambassador for the @dbsalliance (Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance). I am PROUD to be able to tell my #story openly. I am grateful to those who lift me up an cheer me on. No, it’s not always positive. But it’s not all bad either. Living a life with bipolar disorder can have many advantages if only we seek to find them. And I try to latch on to those as my little anchors and tell myself that I am #worthy no matter the flaws in my #brain chemistry. And you are too 💕 (swipe to see some my favorite #quotes about bipolar disorder and a few infographics too).
“Long, blue, spiky-edged shadows crept out across the snow-fields, while a rosy glow, at first scarce discernible, gradually deepened and suffused every mountain-top [...] At the touch of this divine light, the mountains seemed to kindle to a rapt, religious consciousness, and stood hushed like devout worshippers waiting to be blessed.” - John Muir
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