I write this after nursing baby #3
down for a nap. Still sitting in her nursery, I scroll through vacation pics, and I stop at this picture-Sunday- was a day that should have been a very sad and stressful one. A day that I never knew I would learn to hate. I worked so hard, I had student loans, it takes two incomes, we built a life, this is what I am meant to do, I won’t be happy if I don’t, I won’t be good at it, I can so do the work, mom/life balance, we will have to move, or sacrifice and eat ramen noodles.
The worst case of sundayitis ever is what it should have been. Right when you stop being just a food source to them, and they start smiling when you talk and you swear they said “mama”. Right when your just getting the hang of it. Or they start sleeping longer stretches. Should have been right around then. The day I learned to hate. The last day of maternity leave is the day I’m talking about. It would have been that Sunday, it could have been that Sunday.
But it wasn’t. Instead, I was there. Right where I should be.
Its quite a serendipitous occasion really. One that brought me full circle, to where I am today. That I, that we, have choices. There are ways to provide for your family (and treat them to a surprise vacation), without sacrificing. Doing the everyday things that really matter, and not on a hamster wheel.
The choice to create a life on my terms.
The choice to come and go as I please (as soon as baby takes a bottle).
The choice to surround myself with people of positivity and similar mindset, instead of exhausted, a punch on the clock people.
The choice to be the kind of mom my children deserve.
The choice to dream big.
The choice to have the kind of income stream that blows your socks off.
The very choice to make your own choices every single day.
The choice to never ever miss a moment... (This baby is my first baby I wont have to leave to go back to work)
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