I've been in quite a funk lately. And by lately I mean for roughly the last month and a half or so. I've been struggling with some health related stuff and I'm exhausted 90% of the time. My nutrition has been super off and my workouts have my lacking the drive that I once had in the gym. I haven't seen any sort of progress in over a month and it's really been getting to me to be quite honest. I don't think I'm alone in saying that something like this can absolutely make you just want to quit all together. What is the point if nothing is changing?
Last night while talking to this absolutely wonderful human being, I got to thinking. Sure, it's been a shitty month. Sure, I'm not seeing a lot of progress RIGHT NOW. I set out on a search to find some pictures that I took over 2 years ago, the last pictures in this post. I took those pictures at my highest weight, somewhere in the 220-225 range. I was never comfortable. None of my clothes fit me anymore. I felt like I was about to burst out of my own skin. I had no ambition. I hated myself and who I had become. I was desperate for a change and so I got a gym membership. It probably took me close to a year to actually be comfortable in the gym. It took a lot of hours on YouTube and a lot of trial and error, but I never gave up and I am so glad that I stuck it out. After 2 years of hard work, sure I've only lost 25 pounds, but I did it.
Looking at these pictures, I realized there is such a difference that lies between them. Not only physically, but mentally. I am the happiest I have been in years. And the most confident I have ever been in my life. I no longer struggle getting out of bed every day. I have drastically improved my relationship with food. I actually enjoy shopping again and I no longer dread the beginning of summer and the thought of putting of shorts or a swimsuit. Everyone has there off days, weeks, or even months. The important thing is that you realize that that is all it is, a funk. It will pass. You will get through it. All you have to do is keep pushing and keep moving forward.
thank you for talking some sense into me. You helped more than you know ❤️