This week has been a tough one for me, I didn’t have my Psychologist which was tough and Wednesday I handed in my blades, which lead to Thursday being a terrible day for me. I really struggled, hardly ate and just stayed in bed until around 6:30 when I went to the Crisis cafe.
I can’t get over how much the Crisis Cafe has helped me and I appreciate everything they’ve done for me, they’re so supportive. They allowed me to rationalise things and understand that things can happen for a good reason and not to blame myself for the bad things that happen. They’ve said they’ll support me through next Friday, even though I can’t go to the cafe that evening, they’re open during the day and if I need I can go then. They want me to go on the Thursday so I can at least talk to someone about how I’m feeling about Friday as it’s going to be an incredibly hard day for me and there’s so much going on
I’m determined to not let him get to me though, he did a dreadful thing, and I have to live with that. He took so much away from me and I hated my body because of what he did. I’ll never forget what he did but I’m hoping over time that I’ll be able to live with it and live a reasonably healthy, happy life💗💗 #strawberryplant #homegrownstrawberries #sexualassaultsurvivor #sexualassault #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #sucidalthoughts #crisiscafe #psychologist #supportive #savedmylife