It’s crazy how fast eating disorder’s take over. I had been doing “okay” the last few weeks. Averaging my calories at around 1300, but having a day or so a week where I wouldn’t count and probably had more like 2000. I know this isn’t enough but it’s still better than before hospital. However this last week or so I have really been struggling and haven’t managed to eat over 800 cals these last 2 or so days. Couple this with doing over 15,000 steps I feel like death. I have never felt this awful even when I was severely restricting. I am constantly dizzy and feel so spaced out. I really don’t know why I feel like this. Today I am determined to at least reach 1000 cals and I’m meeting with my dietician on Friday so hopefully we can sort something out to help as I can’t carry on feeling like this for much longer #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #struggling #morningsnack #hotchocolate #mealplan
Anxiety tips to try and help you understand. •it’s not a choice or something I can just control, and it’s not your fault •don’t fight me about my anxiety, fight it with me •Listening is always more helpful than rushing to a solution •take care of yourself too. Don’t use all your energy on me •sometimes I just need to be alone •sometimes just getting out of bed is a success •it’s more than “being worried” •I’m not trying to be difficult she. I say I can’t do small things •just cuz I’ve done it today doesn’t mean I can tmrw
Breakfast was 30g bran flakes and 200mls of semi skimmed milk. Now of to he day care service for the day! 😬
I guess I never thought about what it would be like when you would no longer be here. You have always been such a key part of my life; such a steadfast & healthy part. I had never let myself consider what it might be like once you were no longer here with me. I miss the sound of your voice, the wisdom in your advice, the stories of your life & just being in your presence. I miss you as much today as I did the day you left. I just miss you so much. 💔
Hormones are hitting me like a bitch today. The last few days I’ve felt a little wobbly, but today I’m really struggling. And I guess that’s okay. Things can still knock you off balance when everything seems to be going well. I’ve always struggled with the emotional side of pms and I don’t think that will ever change. Granted the depo has made things ten times worse. But I know myself a lot more now, I can predict when things are going to get a bit rocky. And I’m sure I can handle things safely, I have a lot of coping mechanisms to fall back on. I just have to remind myself that the emotions I’m feeling at the moment are temporary and exaggerated. In a few days it would pass and things will be okay again. I just have to roll with the waves as they come and reach out for help when I need it. I won’t let a few hormonal days ruin all the progress I’ve been making. If I can offer any advice to anyone else who struggles like this, it’s to track your cycle. There are so many useful apps and it has really helped me. It means I know when things will get difficult and I can prepare for it. Also knowing that it won’t last makes getting through it safely easier. #mentalhealth #mentalhealth #pms #pmdd #hormonal #depression #struggling #dog #puppy #springerspaniel
I WANT TO DIE THIS ISN’T A JOKE ANYMORE
I’m literally obsessed. Fashion is my passion. I’m a man but I am ever so jealous of women for their clothes. I have a good sense of my own which I’ll show you but ugh. Look at this. Just look at it!!!
Should I send those rants to my Mother?
End of huge rants I’m sorry needed to write to somewhere I’m going to show my mom those. Ugh. I love myself so much to be this depressed
Believe me I want to be productive i really do. So support me.
Hello sunshine - totally buzzing off the amount of Ventolin it took me to get here but I survived 👌 asthma & flying don't mix well 😳 #brisbane #worktrip #struggling
5 years ago I started suffering tremendously from panic attacks that turned into full on derealization, depersonalization, dissociation, and agoraphobia.
I tried the GAPS diet, essential oils, therapy, exposure therapy, coping skills, self care. Nothing worked.
I eventually was hospitalized and put on klonopin.
Right then and there I got my ability to function back.
I was able to leave the house, sleep, live. I finally was “me again” after two years of fighting every single second to just stay afloat.
Fast forward to now.
I am being weaned, fast, off of the klonopin.
The symptoms are returning. I desperately asked to stay on for my well being.
I was denied.
I don’t like that I literally need this medication to function and I am terrified of what happens when I’m off of it.
I am in the midst of trying to find a doctor who will keep me on it. (Again, not because I want to, but because it’s the only thing that keeps me functional. Able to leave the house. Able to keep my head above water)
In the mean time I have heard wonderful things about this product, so I purchased in. In a last ditch effort to maybe help.
I really hope one day I won’t have to be on klonopin, but I know with nothing in it’s place, physiologically, for whatever reason it’s not possible.
So I’m praying, begging, pleading that this works, or that I can get a doctor to keep me on my klonopin. (Please no bashing on this post. And please no judgements.) But if anyone has experience with this product, or has been weaned off klonopin and something has helped please leave a comment.
I’m desperate for relief at the moment and need all the advice I can get. ————————————
#mentalillness #panicdisorder #agorophobia #benzodiazepines #mentalhealthawareness #zenapin #naturalalternatives #needadvice #struggling #anxiety #panicattacks #mentalhealth #psychmeds #real #raw #derealization #depersonalization #dissociation
*trigger- Suicidal thoughts*
Woke up at 5am soaked with sweat from nightmares of everyone leaving me. Iv been to upset and scared to go back to sleep and I'm so so tired.
I am ment to have a mindfulness course today and then fly to Ireland but I feel like such a mess.
I had tried so so hard to keep myself balanced and even took time yesterday morning to try and rebalance myself as I was looking forward to spending time with a friend in the afternoon so I chose to cancel my morning plans to be more there and with it for the evening. The plans changed and I got triggered which escalated to suicidal thoughts and feelings that where so strong and pretty overwhelming (they carried through in the nightmares too and they where really graphic)
I feel completely defeated as I was trying so hard and one thing triggering me ( well I say one thing but it was followed by a list of all the reasons I'm such a shit person so quite alot triggered me in the end)
I feel like it dosnt matter how skilful I am or how much I try and work on myself so I can be around for others I'm still going to fuck something up so why bother. (I'm going to try really hard to challenge that but it's currently how I feel and how I felt yesterday) I'm having trouble with intrusive thoughts and the last thing I want to do is travel today while I am having suicidal thoughts and other intrusive thoughts. I have cancelled on going to see my nan so much recently and the pressure and stress I am feeling is so overwhelming that I'm starting to panic and I can't help but go back to this being all over someone changing plans and holding things in so that they explode. External factors will always be out of my control but it hurts so much more coz it was an Favourite Person and that's like ripping out a heart.
I really don't feel like I can get through today in this mindset and I'm now dreading everything I was looking forward to.
I'm so worried that now I have another layer added on ( being so tired) that I'l argue with my husband, freak out on the plain, argue with family while I'm over there and to top it off all my plants will be dead when I get home... #struggling #nightmares #darkplace #scared #bpd
My name is Becky Brittnacher and this is my Thrive Experience!
I wasn't just surviving, I was struggling!
Prior to Thrive, I was dealing with general aches/discomforts and exhaustion. I didn't know where to turn or what to do to improve my overall health and wellness. I worked out when I was able, ate a good balanced diet, and took vitamins. That just didn't seem to be cutting it.
Then, I got a phone call from one of my very good girlfriends. My sister from a different miss and mista. She was talking so fast I had to slow her down. I'm thinking, why is she so happy and excited about some vitamin? Now I know you don't know us, but I would trust this friend with my life. Little did I know she was about to save mine.
Without even trying the product I took the leap of faith. I hit the Promoter button, ordered my Thrive Experience, and began my life altering journey.
Day 1: I woke up like all of the days prior, hitting the snooze at least 5 times before dragging myself out of bed in my normal bad mood. I took my capsules and began my routine of packing lunches and getting my step-daughter ready and off to school. 20 to 40 minutes later I had my Lifestyle Mix and applied my DFT. I have to say I felt results that very first day. It was mind-blowing! I didn't have to nap mid-way through the day and I got everything on my list of things to do done, AND MORE.
Day 5: I noticed I was sleeping more restfully and woke up like sunshine and roses. Just picture when Sleeping Beauty wakes up in the forest with birds chirping and fluffy bunnies running around, that was me! Still not a single nap. I had gone to the gym my goal amount of days. My general aches and discomforts had calmed. I also seemed to have excellent muscle recovery.
I'm thinking at this point, I'm surely not going to continue feeling this good. I will begin to go back to that lady that felt 10 years older than she actually was. That was not the case at all. I still feel as fantastic as I did that very first day 9 weeks later! It brings me to tears of joy realizing that I will never have to go back to that feeling of hopelessness ever again. Thanks to my three simple steps.
Grateful and Blessed!
Good friends are ones that get you through your cardio session, when your struggling BAD!!! @niko.katsidis
even with his crusty hip 🤗👊👌 😘
At that moment, he finally figured it all out. Nobody cares.