Thank you all for your love and support! My account has grown double in almost 4 months, and it's quite overwhelming to be honest. I initially started my Facebook page shortly after I graduated to use as my online portfolio, hoping that including it to my CV would help me find a better associate position. Now, both my Facebook page and IG account have become the record book of my career as a dentist, and they are growing with me everyday. I hope all of you who chose to follow along find my posts helpful rather than intimidating and satisfying rather than competitive (even though constructive criticisms are always welcome!). 🤓 Again, thank you all, and enjoy!! 🙇🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️ #heart #from #a #dentist #struggling #todo #herbest #everyday
Sometimes, I just want to drop everything and leave. I struggle with some habits, but maybe it’s just me. Maybe I’m lost in this thing called life. All I know is to never give up and love who I am. 🖤
With Zero Show-off, absolute no Nepotism...its very difficult for a YouTube channel to grow in India...an experience I have learnt first hand ever since I have taken this YouTube game somewhat seriously. But with pure talent and skills, whatever I have acquired over time and still I am acquiring every day and the pure Zeal to move on, keeping the negativities away, I am thankful to each n every of a friend (no fan business here) for taking me close to a 4k Milestone.
Slow but steady wins the race.... #asiride #youtuberslife #youtubers #struggling #itsastruggle #nevergiveup #4k #slowbutsteady
✨I've been struggling lately but I won't give up on myself. We can all get better together if we just focus on ourselves and stop obsessing over others and what they are doing all the time. We should really focus more on improving our own lives first before we even attempt to fix or judge others. #dontgiveup #iloveyou #happinesswillfindyou
Working 5 twelve hour shifts in a row is not an easy task, especially while following a workout program and attempting to eat healthy. To top it off I got back from vacation at 1030pm the night before I went back to work! I'm not trying to complain here, I'm trying to share that it's really hard sometimes! I have no food, I have no energy to go to the grocery store, so after eating tuna for the 3rd day in a row I dug through the cupboards and found popcorn! So here I am, sitting on the couch in my hakuna matata shirt, eating popcorn, a little disappointed in myself because I missed a workout this past week! But tomorrow is Monday! Oh and I have this new found love for Mondays!
&& when a bitch tell me I’m a bad mother but a MAN tell me I’m doin great 😝🤘🏽 i just post && say “ THAT BITCH HATING “ #MOTHERof4
&& not even #STRUGGLING
i work Monday - Friday && still break my neck to do activities with my babies on Saturday 🤗 never trip ova the #ABSENCEoftheFATHER
I don’t know. I do not know anymore. I only know that I am confused and slightly stuck within a strange situation that i am very aware will not be a life long situation.
If I’m brutally honest I don’t know how I feel about you anymore, the pain you’ve caused, the trauma I’ve coped with and the damage you’ve left on me has left me with a constant state of numbness. No thoughts spring to mind and if asked about you, the negative now comes before any of the positives we had at the very beginning.
If I could go back, I’d walk away at the earliest sign, or even id remain as friends and listen to the advice to stay away. You were trouble, they were right but I feel proud and brave that I found this out for my own. I’m proud I was one stable person for you throughout all of your journeys, it’s a shame you wasn’t there for me as this outcome may have been different.
You’re my safety blanket so I know I will not move without you- but I will trick and convince myself how much I love you, and I do, I’m sure I love you right? Or am i used to you? Used to the pain? Used to the disappointment? Used to waiting for the betrayal to come to light? Maybe. Maybe you do become conditioned to the pain.
But how could I ever leave? You do not have a single member of family there for you and your mental health is finally starting to crack. How could I leave now when you need me? Although, I must point out my mental health is also cracking and you’re nowhere to be seen on the supportive side, but the difference is I don’t expect you to be because I’m used to it.
#conditioned #love #betrayal #abuse #abusiverelationship #domesticviolence #mentalhealth #struggling #confused #alone #lonely #breakup #regret #nobodycares #depression #anxiety #timeforme #itsmylife #mytime #selflove #selfcare #changeisgood #change #newlife #please #help #latenightthoughts
📍: a mall
maybe one day when i wake up my chest wont hurt and i wont feel like staying in because the thought of facing myself is too much....
but for now ill stay in silence and pray that i dont consume myself.
From a few days ago. When I felt unstoppable.
Now I'm struggling with crippling depressing and an extreme hatred for the human race. .
Not ignoring anyone, just not interested in talking. I have nothing to say.
#bipolar #excusemewhileipickmyselfup #fuck #struggling
you're gonna regret it, if you don't already...
l'll wait too long for you, until it hurts like hell, finally turn around and walk the other way...
one day you'll turn around, realize I'm gone and wish too late that I'd stayed.
Late night/morning + dressed in yesterday's clothes + brunch food coma + lab work = crash at 5:30pm 💤 😴 #struggle #columbus #ohio
I have been grappling with how to present myself in my social media now that I’ve suffered from a relapse into self-mutilation.
I’ve honestly felt like hiding. Because as most self-harmers can probably identify with, it can be a shameful or embarrassing habit to admit to. Letting people see your scars feels like letting them see you naked. You are completely vulnerable and those marks signify that there is something in your life you are struggling with. Whether it be grief, anger, or uncontrollable anxiety.
I put a warning screen before my photo because I feel like I need to be cognizant of the fact other people who harm or have harmed DO get triggered by scars. Which is probably why I’ve stayed in my own little world, because I don’t want to risk that. As someone with compulsive tendencies, I understand what it feels like to do something you don’t want to do. To feel like you HAVE to do something. To be caught in a dangerous cycle of behavior that may very well be harming you, yet you can’t seem to break free of it.
It is scary. Losing control. Feeling like you don’t have a choice. For a long time my ED made me feel as if I was on a hamster wheel, constantly hustling to measure every calorie, eating as little as possible while remaining as active as possible. It was the equivalent of running on empty and I was miserable. Yet every morning I woke up and feverishly began it, again and again and again.
This photo is just proof to myself that I have nothing to be ashamed of. That I am still beautiful, even while absolutely insecure and hurting both emotionally and physically. I am working with my therapists to taper down on my cutting. I am still actively cutting, yes.
I have had something big happen in my personal life and I am still reeling from it. I believe it caused me to revert to a more regressive self, because it was a traumatic incident for me.
So right now I am coping the only way I know how. However, please don’t feel as though I am encouraging anyone else to self-harm. I only know, that I myself am going through something very difficult and that because I am a trauma survivor, it has caused me to shift into survival mode. (⬇️Cont. Down Below⬇️)