- From the lowest of lows to...the mid-way point. The point where I got stuck. Progress pictures are a double edged sword, and have been a blessing and a curse. The dramatic change garnered so much attention and celebration that I started to believe that I had recovery figured out, but I didn’t and I don’t. Since this 20-30lbs weight gain I’ve remained stuck physically, gaining and losing the same couple of pounds, and deteriorating mentally. I fell into patterns of exercise that grew and grew until they dominated every spare moment (and more) and patterns of eating that, while they kept my weight somewhat stable, were far from ‘normal’. I wasn’t dying any more, but I wasn’t living either. Around Christmas I began realizing just how much I had deluded myself into thinking I was “okay”, and Thailand was the final straw that shook me into knowing I need to change. So I’m changing. I’m refreshed in my recovery. I’m renewed in my motivation. And I’m ready to finish what I started. Instagram helped me with the first “phase”- from my lowest point to where I am now, and I’m hoping YouTube helps me with this second part. I’ll be documenting my life, my meals, and my recovery through vlogs (as well as here, of course) and I would love if you would come along for the ride!