As my last post stated, I took space away from insta for the last couple weeks, but admittedly it was half-hearted as I still was posting for @thedharmatemple...I
felt fraudulent even calling it a break. I took the break to step back to examine a building pressure I was facing in my life. Social media is a neutral thing that can used to do tremendous good, make amazing connections + build your brand, but it can also make you feel like you’re not good enough, like someone else has got it better than you, and it can also disconnect you from the relationships you have IRL. It depends on how you use it. Like all relationships, it requires BOUNDARIES, and by me just saying I wouldn’t use my personal account for 2 weeks, it gave me a little more breathing room...
Last weekend we had our #AquarianLuminosity
training + had a beautiful sharing circle where I sat in awe of the tremendous beings I am blessed to be in community with. To honour the approaching equinox, we all held a light crystal in one hand, a dark in the other + opened up to share our truth. It was incredible to witness the courage + dedication of the people taking part in this training. When it came to me, I burst open. I sobbed + let my students, friends, peers...see me, in my dark, in my humanity.
I immediately judged myself afterwards for allowing myself to be so vulnerable— but then I realized if the basis of the teachings is to let go of everything that isn’t you, and embody more of your True Self then vulnerability is the way.
Personally I’m a woman who has spent a lot of time in the dark, and a lot of time running from it as well. I have found practices that support me + so when I slip into those spaces I can find my way back to the light, but it doesn’t mean I dont go there.
Social media can be a highlight reel that projects an expectation of what it means to be a woman, a mother, a partner, who + how a person is, what their relationship is like + how business is, how her kid is...I felt like my True Self got depressed from keeping up appearances + expectations and just shut down.. the depression was a call for deep rest + I took it. Thanks for being here when I got back.