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Diary entry No. 75 Always... one of the most frustrating parts of Borderline for me. I will be having a conversation with a group and somebody will say or do something and I’ll instantly think they did that to hurt me. Or if I read a text or comment wrong i’ll instantly think that they are shouting me or being unkind. Or when I get criticism from a work colleague I’ll instantly think I can’t do my job and I’m a failure. Or say I buy a new dress or get a new hairstyle and someone will make a comment (usually my mother) and I won’t want to wear it again and I’ll instantly feel insecure about my hair. I’m forever jumping to the wrong conclusion in everything. And sometimes it takes a while for me to calm down, I either realise after 5 minutes or I’ll be up thinking about it at 3am, even if it’s something as little as being spoken to a little differently by someone at work, I’ll think everyone talks about me and judges what I do. I forever wish I wasn’t influenced by how others treat me but I totally am. I’m that doormat friend but at least that means I’m kind and good to others... just wish I got it back a little more that’s all. Repost from @__sadgirl_x Lots of love, BorderlinePersonalityGirl x #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthblogger #depression #depressed #selfharm #selfinflicted #scars #selfharmscars #selfinjury #suicide #suicidalthoughts #trigger #triggerwarning #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #personalitydisorder #borderline #abusesurvivor #selfhate #selfhatred #emotions #life #anxiety #invisibleillness #mentalhealthawareness #medication #youarestrongerthanyouthink #selfharmrecovery #bpdrecovery
Everyone deserves to be loved. Nobody deserves hatred. Even if you've done some wrong, or treated someone awfully.. You still deserve love. Us humans need love and/or the feeling of love. Why? Because if we feel unloved or whatever, we don't see where we stand in life. Tho we stand where we let ourselves -- #depressedquotes #selfhatred #fragile #stressed #trapped #selfharm #sad #quotes #mood #moviequotes #hopeless #depression #fakesmiles #poems #stefansalvatore #sadquotes #deadinside #worthless #used #tired #tryingtosurvive #unhappy #useless #alone #lonely #lies #damaged #hurting #suicidal #fine
All the exams are killing me. I'm working and working and working but nothing seems to happen. As if all this wasn't even worth it. #depressive #depressing #depressedquotes #depressingquotes #depressionquotes #selfharmmm #selfhatred #worthless #hopeless #lonely #wanttodie #hatemyself #ptsd
good drugs on me but i'm bad news.
doodles from in class today,,,,i had a math test but i was sick all last week !! no notice or time to revise ! :((( so i cheated on it and still ended up failing.......hH ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~[#secretsociety123 #selfharmmm #depressing #selfharrm #selfhatred #paleaesthetic #selfharmm #selfharrrm #selfhate #suicidial #anxiety #ventart #hurting #ihatemyself #originalcharacter #persona #oc #creepy #notokay #selfdestructive #mentalillness #creepycute #goreaesthetic #death #dollkin #tw #bloodaesthetic #blood #selfharn ]
I should just jump. She never wants to have contact with me again so what's the point? She was my reason of living. And now I don't have her. I ruined everything with my petty bullshit. . . . . . #petty #sad #sadness #insicure #incicurities #depressed #depression #depressing #fuckfeelings #suicide #suicidal #hurting #selfhate #selfhatred #jump #lonely #lost
Suicide is on my mind again. I seriously don't know what to do with my life. I have a lot of anger towards myself. I don't think I could ever love myself. Maybe if I was thin, maybe if I wasn't so shy. #selfhatred #anger #hatred #depression #depressed #sadpoem #sad #suicide #suicidal #poetryisnotdead #poetry #poem #disorder #selfharm #blackandwhite #socialanxiety #shy #shyness
Whatever i write here it forms your name & bring a smile on my face. So, press "F". . . . . . #selfhatred #depressed #bored
im new to this type of account. i haven’t run any account besides my personal. please follow if you care to read any thoughts. they help you as much as they help me. i appreciate every single one of you who follow and like my posts #depression #depressed #suicide #suicidal #hurt #worthless #selfharm #selfhatred #hurt #depressionquotes #mentalawareness #cutting #burning #stress #youkilledme #ithurtslikehell
Human Error 2 #glitch #selfhatred
Crying for over 30 minutes while panicking and shaking everywhere is fun.. I get scared and worried over the littlest things. Just small things can worry me so much and Its just how I am. I’m also really insecure.. and my anxiety is having fun too. The voices keep telling me I’m not good enough and that everyone is going to replace me. That I’m so fucking ugly. That I’m just a fuck up. That I don’t deserve anything. That everything is always my fault. And no matter how hard I try, I never do enough or help enough or am good enough. I’m just a fuck up • • • Like and follow for more rants and depressing shit @just_me_with_my_thoughts_ Tell your friends to follow me for a follow back • • • #deppression #deppressed #anxiety #insecure #insecurities #needyfuckup #rant #mental #posts #followforafollow #Selfhatred #suicide #blamemyself #allmyfault #thinking #screaming #hell #needybitch #hateme #follow #mentallyhurt #mentallyunstable #mentallybroken
Switched up, took flight on a hater Crashed the whip, I'll see you later My whip red, it stay Darth Vader
The ground disappears I hold back the tears I check my phone to see your face Staring back as if to say "Don't worry, you won't be lonely"
Not having a good day, Father’s Day is getting to me and I just don’t feel okay, idk it’s just not that great of a day, not terrible but not good either • • • • #relapse #ugly #icantdothisanymore #imsorry #fallingapart #failure #triggerwarning #pathetic #killme #hatemyself #goodbye #depression #suicide #suicidal #selfharmmm #selfhatred #suicidalthoughts #anxiety #crying #fasting #eatingdisorder #anoreixa #bulima #fat #helpme #svv #heartbroken #scaredoflove
Diary entry No. 74 All I can say to this is FUCK YEAH! This is my last post for today. I will reply to all my messages tomorrow. Sleep well and try not to give into temptation you beautiful people❤️ Lots of love, BorderlinePersonalityGirl x Quote from @chl0elauren_ #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthblogger #depression #depressed #selfharm #selfinflicted #scars #selfharmscars #selfinjury #suicide #suicidalthoughts #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #personalitydisorder #borderline #abusesurvivor #selfhate #selfhatred #emotions #life #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness #medication #youarestrongerthanyouthink #transgender #trans #lgbt
Nineth attempt The deepest I got it on my shoulder so they won't see it #selfharm #die #died #dead #cuts #selfharrmmm #selfhateee #selfhate #selfhatred #selfdistruction
I feel like I’m being punished for being raped. I feel like it’s my fault. and now I can’t see my brothers and I miss them so much. 😭💔 • • • #depressed #depression #depressionquotes #depressededits #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #suicide #kms #iwannadie #iwannakillmyself #iwannakms #scars #cuts #cutsandbruises #starving #starvingmyself #selfharm #selfharmscars #selfhate #selfhatred #recovory #hatemyself #done #donewithyou #donetrying
PLEASE STOP SAYING IM COPYING PILLOWCULT PLEASE STOP SAYING IM COPYING PILLOWCULT PLEASE STOP SAYING IM COPYING PILLOWCULT PLEASE STOP SAYING IM COPYING PILLOWCULT PLEASE STOP SAYING IM COPYING PILLOWCULT IM NOT I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW PLEASE JUST LET ME HAVE MY OWN ACCOUNT AND AESTHETIC IM LITERALLY NOT COPYING THEM WE HAVE EVEN SPOKEN AND THEY UNDERSTAND IM NOT COPYING THEM AND WE’RE ON GOOD TERMS PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND STOP SENDING ME STUFF IM NOT COPYING THEM OH MY GOD MY ART DOESNT EVEN LOOK LIKE THEIRS ITS THE SIMILAR BACKGROUNDS JUST S T O P ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~[#secretsociety123 #selfharmmm #depressing #selfharrm #selfhatred #paleaesthetic #selfharmm #selfharrrm #selfhate #suicidial #anxiety #ventart #hurting #ihatemyself #originalcharacter #persona #oc #creepy #notokay #selfdestructive #mentalillness #creepycute #goreaesthetic #death #dollkin #tw #bloodaesthetic #blood #selfharn ]
life : : : (The original picture belongs to downertexture on tumblr!) #depression #poetic #selfhatred #life #depressingedits
it’s fathers day and im really not in the mood to spend it with my family..all they do is make me feel bad about myself and they treat me like hell...they’re always telling me that i need to lose weight, im getting fat or im stupid. then they always have a problem with me sleeping in late or staying up at night, they think im just up on my phone but that’s not why...i literally cannot sleep and they don’t even care.... • • • • • • • • #imhurting #anxietysucks #depressingquotes #why #anxiety #sleeplessnights #familysucks #hatemyself #cutting #depressed #depressionhurts #depressionsucks #anxietysucks #anxietyisreal #worthlesspieceofshit #worthlessquotes #fucklife #help #cryforhelp #helpme #selfhatred #selfharm
Diary entry No. 73 So today I went fishing with my fiancé and father in law. It was so relaxing and it just reminded me how beautiful this world can be. I love nature and anything to do with animals. I haven’t been active much because there was no signal, which was actually quite refreshing. So that’s why I didn’t reply or comment back for so long. I’m going through my messages tonight and I promise you’ll all get a response as soon as I get the chance. Its Fathers Day in the UK today. Father’s Day never meant much to me until nearly 3 years ago when I had my daughter and I saw what a Father actually is thanks to my amazing other half. What have you done today? Lots of love, BorderlinePersonalityGirl x Quote by @littlearthlings Repost from @homebodytherapy #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthblogger #depression #depressed #selfharm #selfinflicted #scars #selfharmscars #selfinjury #suicide #suicidalthoughts #trigger #triggerwarning #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #personalitydisorder #borderline #abusesurvivor #selfhate #selfhatred #emotions #life #anxiety #invisibleillness #mentalhealthawareness #medication #youarestrongerthanyouthink #selfharmrecovery #bpdrecovery
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