I lost someone very dear to me the night before I began my blogging/photography trip in Morocco. This trip was something I looked forward to since March so as you can imagine, it wasn’t the best timing, as I suddenly wasn’t myself and felt as if I couldn’t have fun like I wanted. I wanted to grieve and cry and be alone or with people who knew me well, but none of those things could happen. Instead I had to try to be as myself as I possibly could, still laugh when something was funny, and still learn as much as I could. The hardest part was trying to trick my mind and acting through the pain. Every time my mind entered back into the place where I knew Geet was no longer with me, I felt lost, confused, devastated and alienated.
The biggest lesson I learnt is that regardless of yours struggles, secrets, failings, guilts, losses, you can still push through life. And pushing through is what strengthens you, it’s what makes you grow as a human. Something might not feel right, but life has its way of continuing anyway. And when you continue, you learn valuable lessons about yourself, life and others.
I am now able to find some alone time in Egypt for a day or so to think, meditate and appreciate Geet, for who she is and was. I feel so disconnected to her and India, I wish I could’ve been there to honour her and remember her. I am just grateful to have shared time and friendship with such an amazing woman and beautiful friend.
It’s amazing that through such pain, you can still connect, even though no one knows your pain. And I thank you so much to the people in Morocco I connected with and could confide in, as well as laugh with and have adventures with, and learn off. So much talent can never go unseen. Love to all ❤️✨