Time to share:
Lately I had been questioning my self esteem. I haven't been as confident as I had finally managed to be a year ago. People kept comparing me to myself from five years ago, a skinnier and prettier me according to them. So when I had my graduation photos done I picked them apart and found everything I hated about them. I have finally come to grips with how unhealthy that is. I had stopped doing such things a year ago. I had stopped editing photos to make my face smaller, I had stopped trying to blur my acne or hide my chin. I am filled with shame for my actions. People told me I was beautiful but I wondered how they could love me when I was fat? I am sorry for not sincerely appreciating your words at the time my friends. I know now that you meant it. Many things had made me come to this conclusion of self-awareness. I was finally reunited with people who truly love me and make me feel comfortable in my own skin. My friends never ending support and encouragement. Being around someone who makes me laugh and feel like a beautiful human in general. Crazy enough the last person who made me realize I am more than my own physical "imperfections" an isntagramer I came across today who had embraced their own insecurities. Also, they are amazing and beautiful regardless of what anyone says.
Overall I have much to be proud of. I graduate this summer with my first degree, I am academically thriving, my social anxiety has improved tenfold and I am surrounded by the sweetest people. I am going to take up Yoga, no not for weight loss but to feel good on the inside. Remember, mental health is important. Take care of yourself and don't let your insecurities fester. I wish everyone luck on taking care of themselves and no matter what anyone says, you are so beautiful and amazing. Don't compare yourself to anyone, not even yourself.
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