When you were a kid, they told you to be respectful, you weren't allowed to say certain things in order to not offend anyone, to keep things in order and eat healthy. When you were a kid you got offended, they told you certain things that broke you inside, but you haven't said a word, because you were "respectful", they were vomiting opinions, judgments and comments and you never asked for it. Your head was messed up and it really didn't matter if you were trying hard to make things work, all that mattered was that you ate healthy. When you grow up you know that you have to be respectful by saying the right thing and take care of yourself. When you grow up, you meet disrespectful people that say the wrong thing with the worst timing ever. Your head is more messed up as the time goes by, and it doesn't even matter if you're taking care of yourself, you'll always be wrong. Then, aparently, you turn into the "coward" that decided to pack her stuff to fly into the clouds. At this point you find yourself barefoot in that spiky labyrinth that your mind is. You wonder if you took the right choice. Some may think that you're wrong, others want to be at your place so bad, but they choose to stop talking to you by making up some "bulshit" to juistify the fact that they never packed THEIR stuff. But when you ask yourself "Why do I care? Why did I care this much?" you've find your own dimension. You KNOW why you took that 4:30 am flight that brought you back in time, on the other side of the world. You know your own story, and if someone says something, it means that they haven't read your cover carefully, they didn't pay attention to your preface, and everyone knows that reading the summary on the other side of the packaging can give you an idea but it can never tell the whole story. So, if you wanna read me, turn my pages: I will be able to tell you what I know, what I feel, and who knows? You'll see yourself in my words because I'll probably speak about you too. It doesn't matter why I made a choice, it matters where it'll bring me and it will bring me somewhere, you'll see.
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