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I’m restless tonight so I was going through my instagram, and I found this picture. I took it one night before church, August 6th 2016. I had no idea how much my life would change because of that one night. I met my now husband @alexk.95
at church that night. The best thing that’s ever happened to me. But it’s so crazy to look back, and see how much I’ve changed since then. Some changes for the better and some not so much. But one thing I know, is I miss this person in this photo. She was a much more care free and happy person. Anxiety is something that drains you, and you kinda don’t realize just how much until you look back and remember who you used to be. The person you and your loved ones used to know. This is the girl my husband met and fell in love with, and I know he still loves me and he supports me, but I also know I’m a different person. If you are struggling with anxiety or depression or any other mental health issue, PLEASE know you are not alone. You’re not the only one out there looking back at who you used to be wondering where you went. It’s hard to talk about and hard to admit, or to know where to go. Just reach out to a loved one, or a stranger if that’s easier for you, and talk to them. Look at an old picture of yourself and talk to that person you used to be, that you used to know, see the life in their eyes and the sincerity in their smile.. it will give you a LOT of clarity. The road back to that person will not be easy or short or convenient, but it will be rewarding and freeing and worth it. You can do it. And so can I.
Day 415, I was tired I did went for a walk, but it was one of those days where I felt tired for no reason.
Day 416, I didn't do much on Friday I did went for a walk at 11 something Am, and just stayed at my local Elementary School for a few minutes, later on that day I had an temp - permanent job agency called me, and asked me if I was willing to work for 12 hours about 25 miles away from where I live 3 days one week, and 4 days another week, I said yes, so I'll have to wait.
Day 417 I went to Target with my daughter on Saturday during the early afternoon, there were alot of customers, I had a sensory overload, meaning my brain felt overwhelmed, but I didn't have the urge to get out, I guess whenever I go to Target it reminds me of my first few panic attacks.
Day 418 my daughter and I went to bestbuy, and Walmart I felt fine, I been having the urge to leave my house, and go somewhere.
#anxiety #panicattacks #panicdisorder #agoraphobia
Some methods for treating anxiety work for some people but not for others, and some are generally more effective than others
Unfortunately for me, it’s the tough calls, the big life-moves and the quitting the crap from my diet that has made the biggest difference 😣
It’s sad because I’ve realised the “quick fix”, on the fly, herbal, supplements, lavender additives don’t work as well (aka the convenient little “helpers” we get advertised)
I would be interested to know if anyone else is in my boat? Having to make the big moves to keep anxiety at bay 🙅🏼♀️ and that’s tough! Requiring a LOT of discipline and motivation 💪🏽
I talk about my big three power moves against anxiety in my latest blog post. Link in bio 👉🏽
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Just needed to post something I need to keep reminding myself. I push myself to far over my limits sometimes and I just lose it, but at the end of the day I know why I am doing this. I am doing this becasue I have no limits, I will go above and beyond for what I want and not stop and I will not let anyone slow me down. My life is not a compilation and know one is.better than me, I am better than know one either. I know my worth, I know my values, I will give my all to those in need, to help animals who scream out and have no one to listen, but I will, I will answer, and I will save everyone. (At least my damned hardest) I am doing this for my family, my son, my husband, myself, to give us the life we deserve. My husband is so perfect at providing, I want him to know I am right there with him to hold him hand in hand and go through it all. My son will understand one day.
#iknowmyworth #vetschoolishard #vettech #veterinarytechnician #almostdone #ineededthis #motovation #panicattacks #stressingout #facepalming #breath #youcandothis #icandothis #formyself #formyfamily #getoutofmyway #nocompitition #iknowmyvalues
I want to feel everything and nothing all at once. I want to walk around late at night and hold your hand as you tell me stories about your childhood. I want to stand in the middle of the road, where the dotted lines meet, as cars honk and swerve around me. I want to feel your nails down my back, where my blood pours out from the scratches. I want to buy a slushie and throw it off a bridge and watch it splatter on the cement down below. I want to feel everything and nothing all at once, because I'm still trying to figure out if life or death is the one for me. - ☻
Vetiver is an amazing oil, but takes forever to come out of the bottle. I found this dropper on Amazon that fits perfectly and makes using it so much easier.
Oh you know, just taking my 🐱kitty on a walk while discussing mental health with POC healers + therapists on @thestrangeisbeautiful
as featured on @remezcla.
I coloured this picture last night while having an anxiety attack and i calmed down while i was painting it. It was one of the worst attacks in four straight days. I was almost gasping for air although I knew at the back of my head I have adequate air in my systems. I was convinced that I was going to die. It's just one of the things anxiety and panic attacks does to you. Sometimes it hit you right in the middle of something you ve done a gazillion times yet that task seems impossible right in the middle of an attacks. It's a crazy feeling one can't stop it from happening. I ve tried many ways to control it, sometimes it work and sometimes it doesn't, so you move on to the next method hoping it would go away soon. Usually I would play some games but last night I decided that for every attacks that I have, I ll paint a picture and put it up on my wall so that it will tell a story. It's really a battle with my own mind. But I'm sure I ve not exhausted every avenue and will continue on my fight. Till the next picture
#anxiety #panicattacks #panicattacksurvival #anxietyandpanicdisorder #anxietysucks #paintbynumbers
Alot of people do not understand what it is like to truly have a fear. People with anxiety, we know fear too well. I had a major panic attack when I was driving once. I was stuck in traffic and realized that I didnt even have my cellphone. That made the experience so much worse. I almost damn crashed my car just trying to get out of the traffic. I was frantic and really believed I was going to die. Luckily, I remembered that i had a good friend who worked close by and as I started heading towards his workplace, I was already starting to calm down. However, it was such a traumatic experience for me that for almost 2years, I could not drive by myself. Not because I was scared of driving, I was scared of having a #panicattack
I lost my independence and avoided going to see family and friends. Exposure therapy really worked for me. But it doesn't matter what kind of therapy you do, the healing is going to start with YOU.
YOU have to stop fearing the anxiety, fearing the fear...worrying about everything that could go wrong. Only YOU can truly change your thought process.
I've had so many panic attacks and I've never died. And you won't die either. Just breathe through it. It feels horrible but you gonna pull through and be ok. Just believe that.
#anxietydisorder #panic #panicattacks #panicdisorder #anxietyattack #fear #nofear #motivate #motivation #motivationalquotes #hope #ocd #bpd #anxietyrelief #anxietysupport #depression #bipolardisorder #bipolar #bipolardepression #mentalhealth #mentalillness
STAY TUNED for my upcoming 4 part video series on LIVING ANXIETY. I have been a therapist for over 10 years and Ive heard a lot of stories from patients, moms, friends, and loved ones who struggle with anxiety. People from all walks of life struggle and suffer and I have been one of them who have sat with my own racing thoughts, feeling completely overwhelmed, and not knowing where to start. I have been trained as a therapist to handle a lot of situations and the last 10 years of experience in mental health has given me so many beautiful opportunities to help others all the while helping myself.
In the middle of all of my helping I realized that I started to neglect myself. I woke up one day looking at a number on the scale I never thought I would see. I realized I had to do something.
So here I am coaching other women to live their lives to the fullest on their amazing fitness journies while I’m on my own mission. What a 🔥 in my belly for helping others this is my happy place!
So join me for my 4 part series on anxiety, emotional eating, and learning to love yourself again.❤️
Coming soon weekly in July! Stay tuned follow me and turn on post notifications so you don’t miss it😉 #anxietyattacks #panicattacks #ocd #anxious #anxietyrelief
My most pouty selfie, I know. But this is an important post. I really have had the most fabulous few years. I went through a bout of anxiety and did a LOT to rectify it. AND IT WORKS, PEOPLE! Getting help, reading books, talking and sharing HELPS. People aren’t weak for getting advice or admitting to hard feelings. It’s hard to summon up the courage to express really difficult thoughts and patterns of behaviour. It’s embarrassing and feels shameful and like you’re a bit of a loser. But I’m here to say from the other side that NOTHING matters more than happiness, so just swallow your pride and get on that road to self awareness. I now live a life with basically no anxiety. Of course I still have moments where I hear a bang in the house and wonder ‘what the fuck’! But that’s normal when you have two kids and an accident prone husband 😂😂😂. I don’t have panic attacks and I don’t even feel close to ever having one for years . How have I done it? I PRIORITISED HAPPINESS. I said that ANYTHING was better than feeling anxious/ depressed/ overwhelmed. I made an on the spot decision after a panic attack that being happier was going to be my PRIORITY. Funny thing happens when you do that, you get really fucking honest with yourself. It’s challenging to deal with the honesty that comes up, like ‘I don’t want to be a yoga teacher’, ‘I don’t want to look after my kids all week’. These are not easy feelings to recognise (this is called the ‘work’ for a reason). But every time I would ask myself WHAT IS GOING TO MAKE ME HAPPY (and don’t lie, Antonia). Everybody around me benefits. It feels selfish, but prioritising my happiness over my achievements or how I am perceived or guilt or what people might think of me ...has been at the CORE of becoming a much happier human. First, I only admitted this stuff to my husband (what a good man he is) and then I realised professionals in counselling are awesome and used them. If you feel down or anxious or if bad feelings are ruling your life or they feel so big you can’t possibly talk about them, please know someone can relate to you, you’re not a bad person & talking helps! 💕
For an impatient person like me, waiting is always difficult, especially as I have an overdeveloped sense of urgency. The theme of this holiday so far has been waiting. Waiting to see my brother and his family 👪 again. Waiting to give my niece and nephew a big hug 🤗. Waiting for months while we planned it all. Then when the day came, waiting at the airport 🛬, which wasn't too bad. Waiting on the flight, getting through 5 films 📼 made it go quickly: Ferdinand was lovely, Early Man was good but not up to Aardman's usual standards, Peter Rabbit was fantastic despite me being all set to hate it, Ladybird was worthwhile but a bit disappointing and Alan Partridge: Alpha Papa was surprisingly funny.
Now, it's waiting the night 🌃 out; waiting for my stomach to settle but I'm getting to know the bathroom 🚽 quite intimately and how to navigate the place in the dark; waiting for my head 🤕 to settle so the room doesn't spin when I lie down so I can sleep 😴: 7 hours in more than 3 days isn't great; and waiting for the sun ☀ to come up so I can see Costa Rica in all its glory after glimpses yesterday.
While I'm waiting, I've written this post whilst sitting in the dark, keeping the anxiety at bay: stopping 🛑 the spiralling thoughts in their tracks, spinning 🦔 the catastrophising thoughts 💭 and telling myself "all this shall pass" with reminders of what I have to look forward to over these next few weeks 😊. #anxiety #panicattack #panicattacks #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #allthisshallpass