- Day 26 - #SomethingNew
My 'something new' is stepping out of the shadows and allowing myself to be seen and heard more than ever before by more people than ever before.
This may seem strange, my calling this my 'something new' because I am an open and honest share-it-all sort in this space especially, but (as a natural reaction to some serious life stuff) I have felt myself close in on myself in the past year and 8 months and slowly semi-begin to open up again more recently. ***
Two weeks ago, I received a rejection letter from the MFA in Creative Writing that I applied to. I had been so sure that I would be accepted that I put all my eggs in one basket and only applied to one program. My reaction to their decision was surprise because my previous interactions with people who run the program indicated that things would go differently. Within an hour of receiving the letter, I was researching other options - career options, other MFA programs I might apply to, etc. By that evening, at an alumni event, I was speaking with the head of the B.A. program I graduated from about it & seeking guidance from her. I asked her if I should send a letter to the head of the MFA program that rejected me & ask what I might persue in the next year that would make me a more attractive candidate when I reapply. She encouraged this. Simply writing that email made me feel better - making myself visible, seen, heard in a polite and productive way.
At that same event, I shared my "Adventures in Higher Education: 3 schools, 4 attempts, and 18 years to graduation" story with one of the women who runs the Alumni Ambassador program. She asked me to meet with her colleague which I did today and I will be speaking to a group of prospective students on May 15 and another group on June 11.
Since receiving my diploma in December, my sole focus had been on graduate school. Now that it is not happening this summer, as I anticipated, I am broadening my view, exploring possibilities, and seizing opportunities as they present themselves. My life has not been & continues to not be linear. I embrace this and I evaluate, adjust, and move forward - out of the shadows, exposed & open.