Damn stop that noise dude.. it ain't cool.
We don't enjoy our thoughts or rituals..
If we are cleaning something it's our mind making us do, we don't enjoy cleaning things. It's complusion and we don't enjoy them.
Also not everyone with OCD has complusion like that. It differs by person suffering.
Anyone at any age can develop #OCD
and OCD affects people in different ways. If you or someone you love has obsessive-compulsive disorder, studies for potential new treatments are enrolling now. Learn more about how to get involved @ activmedresearch.com
Dont let ignorant people validate your mental illness. Its not up to them.
For my #ptsd
peeps, a good metaphor when explaining ptsd to people
IK WIL AANKOMEN!
Misschien een beetje een gekke uitspraak aangezien instagram vol staat met afgetrainde lichamen en weight loss journeys (no offence overigens), maar ik denk dat het ook goed is om met jullie te delen hoe erg ik struggle met mijn gewicht, ondanks dat ik super slank ben. Ik heb namelijk geen typische anorexia met een vertekend zelfbeeld en ondergewicht. Ik zie precies hoe ik eruit zie en vind mezelf dan ook écht te dun, maar ik ben gewoon vreselijk bang om aan te komen en de controle te verliezen. Dit is mogelijk ook autisme gerelateerd. Ik heb namelijk graag de controle, over alles.. 😂 Ik ben de controle regelmatig verloren in het verleden, waardoor ik ook overgewicht gehad heb doordat ik ging binge-eaten. Ik ben toen gediagnosticeerd met boulimia, maar ik deed eerlijk gezegd vrij weinig om te compenseren. Ik probeerde veel te sporten bijvoorbeeld, maar dit deed ik niet zo extreem dat ik ook op gewicht bleef. Laxeren en overgeven heb ik ook nooit echt gedaan. Ik bleef aankomen en vooral omdat ik echt vréselijke eetbuien had. Die eetbuien waren oprecht het ergste van m’n hele eetstoornis. Het gevoel dat je MOET eten, en anders geen rust hebt. Je drie supermarkten af gaat (uit schaamte) als een junk om maar je behoefte te kunnen bevredigen, en iedere dag opnieuw met jezelf afspreken dat je vandaag geen eetbui gaat hebben. Verschrikkelijk.
Ik ben dus echt ontzettend blij dat ik dat niet meer heb, en wil dat ook echt nóóit meer. Daarom wil ik jullie graag meenemen in mijn weight gain journey, haha. Ik wil op een normale, gezonde manier, ten minste een paar kilo aankomen om op een wat gezonder gewicht te komen. Even voor de duidelijkheid: ik heb al een gezond gewicht, het zit alleen tegen de ondergrens aan en dat vind ik tricky gezien mijn eetstoornis verleden. Misschien werkt instagram als een goede stok achter de deur om ook daadwerkelijk die paar kilo aan te gaan komen, en hopelijk motiveer ik andere meiden die hier ook mee struggelen om hetzelfde te doen. Ik ga dit echt stap voor stap doen, zodat mijn hoofd iedere keer kan wennen aan een bepaald getal op de weegschaal. (1/2)
If you've been a regular reader of my blog or you've been following my journey on Instagram you'll know that I've been seeing and therapist via Skype on a weekly basis since March and today I want to speak a little bit more about therapy.
A lot of people - including myself on occasions, as will soon become apparent - assume that when you see a therapist, the therapist will have all the answers to whatever problems and issues you are facing.
You assume you'll sit there and explain what's wrong and then expect them to tell you what to do. However, this isn't the case! Therapist aren't there to live your life for you and they can't tell you what you should be doing. They're there to help you solve your own problems and help you workout what's best for you, what your comfortable doing and how to then move forward.
When I first began therapy I remember feeling as though it 'wasn't working' and that was because I was in the mindset I just explained. I was telling my therapist my problems, what was wrong and how I was struggling with my OCD. Then expecting her to have the magical solution and tell me exactly what I need to do, but that's not how it works!
It took me quite a while to realise that the only person who is in charge of my recovery is me and the only person who can make a decision and plan my recovery is me, sure my therapist will make suggestions and guide me through the process but ultimately my recovery is down to me!...
You can read the full post over on my blog www.daintybailey.blogspot.co.uk at 12pm(bst) You'll also find the link in my bio!
A little more kindness and compassion is what you need💚
It has been a tough couple of weeks, felt sad, angry, emotions up and down and then even a little empty and numb at times.
Every morning I wasnt sure how I'd feel when I woke up, so I allowed myself to rest and just be for a while. Every morning it felt impossible to get out of bed, but I tried my best🙏
With a little encouragement and reassurance from my family that I was going to be okay, I woke up and I kept trying🙏
Today I managed to get myself dressed and go for a walk outside, for this I am proud. I can finally feel a little strength within me again and feel I will be okay🙏
There is always hope🙏
You really do not know what strength tomorrow will bring...Please keep fighting!
You are worth it and you are needed in this world🙏
You are very brave and strong🙏
It truly does not matter how slowly you get through your days, Rest for as long as you need to, then please keep going!
Be kind to yourself and believe you can get through this too💚
go check out my youtube pleaseeee :) this is the second last video i posted. my current favourites is linked in my bio 💞 working on a coffee & chat video and my depression story
Today was my first proper session at art group!!! I had such a great time. I painted the bunny above in watercolour, and started on some pen line art? (Not sure what it's called). When I got home I walked the dog, swept our path again (manual labour always seems to get me in the mindful mood! Anyone else?) and I asked my hubby if he wanted to go out for dinner. And we did! It was a great day but I did have some anxiety at the end of it. I'm feeling a little panicky right now. I had my first ocd thought just now for the FIRST time today and it caught me off guard because I've been so free of them today. I'm really tired, I better get some sleep now. Night all! 💓✨💓 #agoraphobia #agoraphobiarecovery #socialanxiety #ocd #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #ocdrecovery #mentalhealth #endthestigma
Today I definitely ate the “calling for help through memes” choc 😋🍫
Recovery isn’t all inspirational posts and self care breakthroughs. It’s fucking hard and not pretty. It’s tears and coughing and vomiting because the emotions just need to come out some how. Trying to challenge your own thoughts and adapt long entrenched belief systems is excruciatingly painful. I have so much respect for people who actively engage in their therapy and do their homework and do their exposures out of the therapy room. Because that’s when change happens. And so many people are scared to do that. They are scared to look at themselves and ask the hard questions. People with mental illness do this everyday. They challenge themselves to be better. Sometimes i resent the non mentally ill around me who don’t challenge themselves and get away with unacceptable behaviour, because yes it’s not a diagnosed mental illness but it sure isn’t pleasant for others to be around. Mental illness recovery and management is crying on the floor because the emotions have triggered your freeze or flight mode and you cannot move. Your legs work and you know they do yet the fear is paralysing. This fear is that the emotions will overcome you and the fear that you will not win the battle this time. That’s the ugly truth of it. It’s not just a battle it’s a full blown world war against yourself with a hundred battles you have to win because you have no choice. You can always tell the battle is happening it’s all in the eyes if you care enough to look. I’m pretty sure my smile hasn’t reached my eyes for a good few weeks #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #mentalillness #depression #bipolar #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #anxiety #suicideprevention #suicideawareness #itsokaynottobeokay #itsoktocry #psychosis #crying #dissociation #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimiarecovery #bulimia
A painting a did at a very low point in my life reflecting not only an extremely traumatic incident, but also the medications my doctors loaded me up on afterwards. This painting is shitty speaking in terms of form... however it is one of my best, very raw 🖤
July 17, 2018
Today I decided to spend my time doing something I love. I took my pup on a dog walk to the park and read for a while in the shade ☀️
What did you do today to relax?
Anxiety. Depression. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. For a very long time these words have defined me. Defined my abilities, defined my choices, defined my life. .
And, lately, it has all been too much. The emotions have not only overwhelmed and exhausted me, they have begun to manifest physically—I have been dizzy, I’ve had headaches, I grind my teeth, I get heart palpitations and chest pain. It is scary and it is sad and it is frustrating. Why me, I wonder…why can’t I be just like everyone else? Why can’t I just be CONTENT? That’s just not how I’m wired. It sucks, but it is my reality. .
When my spirals begin, I start off by neglecting my health. I don’t rest when I need to, I don’t eat properly, and I find any (and every) excuse to avoid my workouts. This, of course, causes me to feel ashamed…which then makes me feel MORE anxious, MORE depressed. More UNWORTHY. .
Today I worked hard to silence those voices. I made a conscious and deliberate decision to put my health, put MYSELF, first. It took everything in me to go downstairs to the gym. But I did it. My mind told me it wanted to sleep. My mind told me I had so many other things that I needed to be doing. My mind told me it didn’t matter. That I didn’t matter. But I did it anyway. .
I AM worthy. I AM loved. I AM enough, just the way I am. I know this and I know feeling anything other than this is a lie. But it takes a lot to override that narrative in my head. .
But today, for a few minutes, I did. . . . . . . .
#anxiety #depression #ocd #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #agoraphobia #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #hiddendisability #perseverance #persevere #happiness #healthyliving #love #selflove #selfcare #liift4 #motherhood #postpartumjourney #survivor #momlife #selftalk #realtalk #truth #lies #youareworthy #youareenough #iamworthy #iamenough
Welcome to my OCD life! Cleaning is no chore to me. I actually love it. I get a great sense of satisfaction and pride out of it. I can't sleep if things aren't just right. I can tell if my sugar Jar is even a centimetre out of place, if my rug if just a millimetre to the right. Every spec of dust or lint on my carpet. If things aren't level, even or perfect it drives me craaaazy!! I HAVE to fix it! My OCD extends further to counting. I count everything; tiles on ceilings, chairs in a room. Panels of glass...I draw patterns with my finger on tables or my leg. Just trace them and count their lines, shapes or sides. I have OCD which spans more than just stereotypical cleaning. It's daily rituals to help you survive ❤️ #ocdlife #anxietydisorder #mentalhealthtreatment #traits #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #mybrainworksdifferently
So, I've been in a bit of a slump, lately... Partially because of some #MentalHealth
related issues (#Anxiety
), partially because of some work related issues, and partially because of some personal related issues. The progress I've made with my #Anxiety
is unbelievable, to me. So, I'm quite happy with where I am, right now, in regards to that. I know that the current setback I'm experiencing is minor, so I'm not overly concerned, but it has added to my current state of funkiness. The work related issues are... Just annoying. Honestly. I spend most of my day around people who make me cringe, which makes for a very long work day. But, it could be better, could be worse, right? I'm just leaving it at that. But, what has REALLY been bothering me lately is that my Norwex business is also in a major slump. It feels like I'm going nowhere fast, I've exhausted all of my options, and I'm beginning to feel like a failure. However, I DO have a plan to dig myself out of this hole, but until I do, I can't help but feel like a major fuck up. SO. Even though I've been feeling super down lately, I know that I don't want to stay down. And the easiest way to pick myself back up is through #SelfCare
. Also, #BoringSelfCare
, like washing the dishes & folding the laundry, which I just did. #StayPositive
, friends. 👍 #MentalHealthPost
Ich möchte nicht, dass meine Diagnosen mich beschreiben . Denn hinter mir steht eine starke Persönlichkeit, die stärker als meine Diagnosen ist. Aber einige Merkmale meines aktuellen Zustands möchte ich euch aufführen
Ich habe immer alles im Griff und drehe durch wenn der seltene Fall kommt, wenn ich es nicht im Griff hab . Sogar unter Einfluss von Alkohol hab ich immer Kontrolle, bereue rein gar nichts und sehe es machmal wie als Spiel, wie weit ich mich selbst kontrollieren kann. Genau so wie beim Essen. Nur eine Mahlzeit am Tag - bei mir normal zum Teil.
Normen, Vorschriften und Moral:
Ich könnte durchdrehen, wenn etwas nicht richtig oder falsch durchgeführt wird. Ich bin der letzte Mensch auf Erden, der z.B. jmden betrügt oder lügt, mich stresst es sogar massiv, wenn eine Freundin das macht 😂
Perfektionieren und Funktionieren:
Dinge die kaum zu erreichen sind, sind für mich eine willkommene Abwechslung und ich bin so übertrieben ehrgeizig und bin dann nicht mal glücklich, dass ich es erreicht hab, sondern möchte nur die Bestätigung, die ich früher nicht bekommen hab .
Fast durchgehend Alpträume, die alle geografische und räumliche Strukturen aufweisen. Meine Kreativität ist kaum zu stoppen. Ich schlafe bis zu 14 Stunden täglich und wenn ich mir einen Wecker stelle verpenn ich meistens oder bin ziemlich genervt.
Tagesablauf und Struktur:
Es gibt kaum Tage, an denen ich nichts tue. Bei mir ist ein Tag immer komplett durchgeplant. Generell mache ich nichts ohne Grund oder einfach so . Das gibts bei mir nicht . Ich sehe immer das Ziel und ein Endergebnis, dass es so schnell wie möglich zu erreichen gilt .
SV und Selbstmordgedanken:
Ich habe weder selbstmordgedanken, noch Ritze ich mich. Ich habe sehr viele Zwänge und Strukturen, die meinen Alltag beeinflussen und ich versuche dauernd, die Strukturen zu durchbrechen, aber es bilden sich immer schnell neue ... Ich hoffe das ist euch nicht zu lang geworden
#zwanghaftepersönlichkeitsstörung #depressionen #depression #anpassungsstörung #panikattacken #angststörung #depri #ocd #obsessivecompulsivedisorder
Message to everyone without ocd
I draw this visual for patients multiple times a week. Seeing how rituals and compulsions actually aid in the maintenance of #OCD
thoughts and the INCREASE in triggers is so helpful.
It goes like this:
1. The sufferer has a random, terrifying thought which they assign meaning to (e.g., I *must* be a pedophile or I wouldn’t have had that thought.)
2. The sufferer, who knows way deep down they aren’t not a pedophile, then feels compelled to do something to reassure themselves that they are indeed not a pedophile (e.g. praying, asking for reassurance, limiting all contact with children, etc.)
3. These behaviors produce relief—- that is why sufferers engage in rituals or compulsions. They DO help the anxiety go down... however, this relief is short lived.
4. Because... children, life, THOUGHTS can’t be avoided or stopped and the sufferer will inevitably be triggered again.
5. And so the cycle continues. Thought —> meaning assigned —> ritual/compulsions —> relief —> trigger, etc.
6. At this point the sufferer is being triggered left and right and is engaging in rituals or compulsions so often they begin to miss out on their life and limit themselves.
7. Here’s the key! The thoughts are NOT the problem. Research shows that the majority of people have random thoughts just like this.... the problem is the meaning assigned and the subsequent rituals/compulsions. Where as someone without OCD might have a strange thought about a kid, they can let it go as completely meaningless, while an OCD sufferer obsesses about what the thought might mean. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Surprise: the thought means NOTHING, yet it goes on to completely ruin a life.
The ONLY way out of this cycle is to stop doing the behaviors that only provide relief in the short term (#exposureandresponseprevention
is the gold-standard, evidence based treatment for OCD and it WORKS!
Helping sufferers get their lives back is one of my greatest joys.
easy? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Is it worth it? Without a doubt.
#ocdawareness #erp #exposureandresponseprevention #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #drivyruths #anxiety #anxietyrelief #depression
Becoming vocal about having OCD this last year has given me some sense of relief. I’ve been able to seek help and have the support of those around me. I don’t hide it anymore because I’m certain there is some one else in their 20’s struggling with the same intrusive thoughts and thinking how this generation trivializes Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and getting help is scary. Just make the first step. #fightthestigma #ocd #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #mentalhealthawareness
This might just me but ive met some people who took pride in having the worst mental health possible. Its disappointing to see thats how some people see and value themselves. #myex
Today I thought I would write down some self care ideas for you to try out for those days you need a little pick me up! We all have themthem, but sometimes we need some ideas of what to do on those days! So I've complied list of ideas for you all.
Prepare and eat a meal mindfully.
We've become dependent on meals on-the-go and fast food, rarely taking the time to savor what we eat, much less the food preparation. Make the choice to prepare and eat a meal mindfully, at least once a week.
Amend your diet.
What you eat makes such a difference in how you feel about yourself physically and mentally. What is one small change you can make in your diet to improve it? Trying dropping one bad item from your diet and replacing it with one good item (like a fruit or vegetable).
Drink more water.
Water keeps your body temp in normal range, lubricates your joints, keeps your organs functioning, and helps you eliminate waste. Most people don't drink enough water throughout the day.you should aim to drink 1.2litres of water a day. You can get fluids from food and other beverages, but try to make the majority of this intake pure water....
You can read the full post over on my blog www.daintybailey.blogspot.co.uk at 12pm (bst) You'll also find the link in my bio!
Okai so as I don’t have much to do I’m gunna explain my high episodes. So obviously everyone experiences are different, not all are the same. After weeks/ months of me having a low and depressive episode I gradually go into a high episode. So many people believe that having these episodes associate with feelings of happiness(which is 100% true) but I wanna explain why having high episodes for me is also just as bad as a low one 💁🏼♀️
Okay, so being hyperactive 24/7 does get exhausting mentally and physically. I can’t control these moments of euphoria and it’s very challenging to come down from one. I start to not make sense with what I’m saying because I just talk so fast( I’m probably not even making sense now because I’m typing so fast) for me it’s being over excited everyday for no reason at all. I act like a child when I’m going through this episode and when people don’t understand what I’m going through they will assume I’m just being childish when in fact it’s something I can’t come down from. I don’t barely sleep because I’m too excited and I just don’t have time for sleep. I start doing things that don’t need to be done. For example, I’ll start cleaning my room at 2am or decide I want to re arrange my furniture at this time. For me, these episodes increase my anxiety and paranoia and that sucks big time. I start doing things that put me in vulnerable positions which had been a cause of concern with my last episode. I have a love/ hate relationship with being high. Being happy is great but being hyperactive and just extremely happy is so exhausting. 😩 can’t complain I guess #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #manicepisode #bipolardisorder #anxiety #depression #alcoholabuse #adhd #hypomania #mixedepisode #anxietydisorders #postpartumdepression #seasonalaffectivedisorder #posttraumaticstressdisorder #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #panicdisorder #socialanxiety #phobias #alcoholdependence #eatingdisordersrecovery #sucidalthoughts #suicidesurvivor #insomnia