How do you deal with the fact your husband thinks you are not doing enough to get better? Every time he does something that I don’t like, it comes back to the fact I have anxiety and I am over reacting. He come home late, all I ask is for him to just text me so I know he is safe. When he doesn’t, I worry, this is a normal reaction, and nothing to do with anxiety. I just feel so down because he literally told me anxiety can’t be that bad if i don’t go doctors for help?! I have never been on medication for my anxiety, I had only 6 session of CBT. I also know exposure is the key to over coming agoraphobia. And maybe I am not trying hard enough, but what has this got to do with him being late? He used the phase ‘there’s nothing better than able to go out and be free’. I am hurt, because the person I rely on the most hurts me the most. I know I am really dependent on him, and it’s not easy for him either... but this is not how you deal with someone with a mental health issue. You do not turn things around and make them feel crap. It made me think is there a point me relying on him and going places if he is the only way of me doing things, isn’t it better for me to accept that my world is limited and just do what I can by myself. Hubby was away for almost three days, and I was very productive and doing what I had to do, but he still put me down. I hate my anxiety, but what I hate more is making me feel bad for it. Living with anxiety is a battle everyday, some days I hate it so much and how dependent I am, I wish I just slipped away in my sleep, but I think of my son, I get up each day fighting for my son, and for me. I ended up crying, sitting on the kitchen floor, with my son in his room. I am sure the neighbours heard my ‘issues’ because all the windows were open.
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