"I should have left you behind... but I was terrified of being alone." So this is a storytime post in honor of DGM 229, which hit me weirdly hard since it was a very new direction in Allen's development—and his guilt over Tim. Once upon a time, in this picture (2012), I had an AMAZING Timcanpy. And some people have heard tidbits here and there about how I lost the majority of my belongings a few years ago, including my cosplays—and this Tim.
Back in 2015 I was in a bad situation. And when I say bad, I mean it blew up one morning and I had two hours to pack everything I needed, call a friend to help with getting a one-way bus ticket, and get out of the state before I probably ended up dead in a ditch. Don't feel sorry for me—it was my poor judgement and vulnerable state I let myself lapse into that let it get that bad. I had my (golden, clownish) parrot, but there was no way I could bring her, and... my eye landed on Tim. So I snagged him and stuffed him in my suitcase so I had something to hug and remind me of Joy until I could come back for her.
Over the months to come, I got kicked out of the apartment I had ended up renting by a crazy landlady who thought my ~gay agenda~ in the house had turned her daughter into a lesbian. In the resulting insanity involving police and being briefly homeless and living with a coworker's family in their guest room, my belongings were in a friend's car. A friend's car that.. got stolen during that time. And when it was eventually found it had been stripped of all my belongings, so all I had was the shirt on my back and a laptop—the desktop had been in the car. Even Timcanpy was gone.
I did eventually get my parrot back... but she had also been so traumatized that she was never the same. And she died long before her time.
Anyway. All of this is to say the newest chapter is MEAN and hit me pretty hard in a really good way, kudos to Hoshino. And.. it's to say I've also finally started working on Tim again, since I couldn't really bring myself to work on a new one until now. :) #timcanpy #allenwalker #cosplay #cosplayer #cosplays #dgrayman #snow #mood #lonely #alone #sad #dgm #dgraymancosplay #hope #anime #manga #shounen