Just ran my first virtual 5K race through @badassrunners
. . “ABOUT THE CHARITY:
Charity Website: NAMI, National Alliance for Mental Illness
Mental illness affects people of all ages, and it’s imperative that those living with mental illness receive the treatment they need. This is particularly important with children and teens. NAMI works closely with young people to provide them with support, treatment and empowerment strategies.“ .
Growing up I never experienced depression. It was only after I had my daughter (almost 3 years ago) where my personality really changed and I was feeling different. I’ve never been diagnosed with depression, only borderline.
Growing up, I did have panic attacks about death but once I got depressed, I wasn’t afraid to die anymore. It felt like I would be better off that way and I wouldn’t have to deal with everything that was going on in my life. I would NEVER do anything to hurt myself or anyone else but I always thought, I’d be better off dead because I hate life right now.
Things are better now, although I do fall into that state of mind sometimes, it’s not as often as it used to be. I’m working on trying to be a happier, more positive person for myself and my family. .
Obviously, there are MANY people dealing with mental health issues on a much higher level then myself. I have people in my life that deal with depression on a daily basis who have contemplated suicide so many times. To know that they’re struggling internally sucks in itself but then they seem so happy on the outside, it confuses you into thinking they’re ok and they’re happy and its a horrible feeling when you find out what’s really going on in their heads because you wish you could’ve helped more. .
You are not alone! Start speaking with your family members or friends or anyone you feel comfortable with whenever you’re feeling down. Don’t be afraid to talk to people who care about you. They will lift you up! Get the help you need because one day, life won’t be the way it is right now. You may be going through a hard time right now, but things will get better!! Please, seek help and enjoy the life you were given because you only have 1. 💕