Moodswings playin their games like🎢
Sunday: hella lot of snow, a fun drive to munich with a lovely friend, singing in the car, getting mc donalds, being in munich freezing our asses off, being in the Olympia hall once again remebering the excitement for the artists i got to see, rocking out with thirty seconds to mars and jared fucking Leto, ( @jaredleto
)screaming singing .."i will liveee myyy liiiifeeeee" from the top of my lungs, feeling nothing but pure joy for life and happiness, being grateful for the life i'm living, driving back home and falling asleep with a smile on my lips, a hurting throat and the bass still beating in my ears.
Monday: waking up feeling surreal and dizzy, not going to pt school, staying in bed all day staring at the ceiling, questioning myself if it'll all be worth it in the end, not being able to stude for the test the days after, not eating enough due to constant sick stomach feels, being mean to my parents making them worry about me once again, talking to my boy, crying that im a failure, falling asleep from crying too hard
Tuesday: forcing myself out of bed, driving to school in silence, not even a goodbye to my parents, speaking no word to my friends in school, just sitting there quietly staring to the ceiling, crying in class after the teacher asked me a question i couldnt answer because my mouth would just not open itself, still wrizing my test better then expected, talking again, makin fun about all the crying going home, getting noodles and icecream, then an okay cheer practice, sleep with a fuckit mood towards thenfollowing test
Wednesday: waking up, getting ready real quick without snoozing 1000times, leaving my Appartement early and solving Frozencarstruggles like a boss without any panic, driving to school singing along to the radio, having fun in school and afterwards, visiting my grandparents and talking to them for over 1h, having my boy at my place eating pizza and pasta in the evening, laughing and kissing and forgetting that i ever had any struggles.
So yeah, a recoverd life isnt perfect, noones is, but a few years back i would have drowned in that mondayhole. But i made it back up.