I've never been one to put my dirty laundry on social media. But I feel this story needs to be shared because I've seen A LOT of negativity surrounding our self image lately.
I once had a man make me fall hopelessly for him. He actually took the time to be sure this happened, only to tell me that he wasn't actually attracted to me enough. And sorry if this is too much info, but his body clearly reacted to me. Said he knew he wasn't even close to a Brad Pitt, but still wanted to let me know that I wasn't up to his standards physically. He "FELL IN LOVE with my mind and personality and adored me" but couldn't do it. I was larger than him width wise. My belly jiggles. I have stretch marks on my thighs. And the problem wasn't that he wasn't attracted to me because in the privacy of our homes when we visited, he clearly was. He didn't like the way we looked together. He didn't like that people saw that I was bigger than him. And you know what?? I'm not mad because, no matter how hard I may have fallen, he turned out to be the exact opposite of what I needed in my life. He didn't say it to try to make me understand. He said it to hurt me. And you're damn right it hurt. But looking at it now, my heart still twists to read his words, but I feel bad for him. It must be so hard worrying about things like that so much. I know I've gained weight, I do own mirrors. I also have decided that I want to lose weight. I miss seeing my toes. But that's my fucking business. Not his. Not anybody else's. So when you look in the mirror and you dont like what you see, do something about it, but please. Make sure you're making the changes for yourself. Not because of the ugly words of somebody showing their ugly insides. #bodypositivity #loveyourself #selflove #doitforyou #fuckem #liveyourlife