Change the script ✨
Our experiences and journey contribute in making us who we are. When you go through traumas, hurt, pain and life as a whole, there might be certain scars, memories and experiences we resent and have defined who we are today.
In spite of these, we can change the script. You can change your life’s script. You can live the life you want. Pursue the career you want, do what you want.
The journey begins when you decide to change the script. This involves healing, feeling triggered but being aware, loving yourself, feeling pain and letting yourself connect with your Higher self - God.
No matter what scares have been left, you can change your script.
I didn’t realize the impact of all the years of abuse and buried memories caused me. When I became aware and these memories and pain came flooding, I realized I had been dealing with these issues almost all my life and they affected the way I lived. Being diagnosed with chronic PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder came as a relief as I thought, ‘okay so I’m not crazy crazy, I just needed help.’
The experiences I had impacted me so much that it resulted into two mental illnesses that I had to deal with. My psychiatrist told me ‘you have been suffering for too long and alone but now you’re safe’. For a while, I felt shame and then I heard God tell me ‘change the script’. The love and support of my husband gets me through the dark days.
I still deal with these issues but I do not let them define me. I do not accept them. I do the needful to get better but I know that I am King and a survivor.
I decided to write my own script. Create boundaries. Separate myself from people and things I didn’t want anymore. Live life on my own terms for once. Acknowledge and know who I am. Heal. Grow. Love. Forgive.
It’s not always easy but you are the light. You are strong. There’s a higher force in you which is love. It’s a weapon. Use it. Start with you. Change the script.