Today was a rough one more dental work, which insurance didn’t cover. Shook and cried the entire time. Facing fears and I just keep going until it’s all done. In a lot of pain. Had to take breaks and stop work until next week. Went to get my meds/antibiotics and my health insurance isn’t active... it’s been a long long day. I come home and feel drained and defeated. Then I see the wonder in this boys eyes as he looks out the window with all the world as his learning experience filled with pure joy that the excavator is parked out front.
And just like that all my troubles, fears, and pain melts away. Thanks little dude for bringing me back to where my feet are. #wheremyfeetare #dentalwork #Ihatethedentist #meditateeverydamnday #meditateanddestroy #serenity #wonder #facingfear #vscocam #vsco #vscobaby #excavator
I have been so terrified to read my editor's comments on my book, "Breaking The Glass Slipper." And when I say terrified, I mean "wanting to throw up" level terrified.
BUT.... I finally just read her notes and here's what she said: "Wow. I waited until I finished the whole book to write this part. You have so much to offer women in this book! It's easy to see, once you've laid it all out like this, how easily women have led themselves astray by believing a bunch of ridiculous myths that they then use to guide their behavior. So much of what women have been "trained" to do is self-defeating!
Using your insights and tips, I think many women will feel empowered and even curious about what's possible if they experiment with putting this stuff into practice. You could make a real impact.
Your writing style is nice and conversational. Playful, but also challenging when it needs to be and direct.
Work on tightening this up in terms of repetition and I think you've got yourself a winner!" Whew! That wasn't so bad. In fact, that felt really nice and affirming.
I really thought that whatever she was going to say was going to hurt.
Isn't it funny how we get so worked up about something and then what we expect never happens?
Sharing my work with my editor didn't kill me.
I didn't feel rejected.
I didn't feel criticized.
I actually felt loved and supported and the detailed feedback she gave me was invaluable.
Digging into my second draft today. I'm excited to share this book with you... Well....perhaps a little terrified too,
#breaktheglassslipper #fairytales #facingfear #itdidnothurtatall #datingadvice #datingcoach #datingquotes
One question to ask yourself when you fear being judged 🤭
I've always stood out, always been a bit different, and that has always kept me from seeking God's plan for my life.
Mostly because the ones who are different are typically rejected and looked down upon.
But what if, like Jesus, it is in my difference that I am able to make a difference.
Throughout the Bible we find countless statements that seem to go against normal thinking. In weakness God is made strong; He uses the foolishness to confound the wise.
Embracing who we are, who God created us to be, allows us to make the biggest impact for the Kingdom.
The process of becoming who we are is never easy, but the easy road is often less rewarding. Seeking God and our purpose can be scary and full of uncertainity. But if God be for us, who can stop us!
#seekingmypurpose #findingcourage #embracinghislove #facingfear
What if the trajectory of my life wasn't just guided by a series of happy accidents and impulsive decisions? Looking ahead into my future has always been totally cloudy, but what I realized today was that it's directly tied in to self-worth and self-confidence. What if I felt like I deserved to MAKE things happen, instead of just vaguely hoping they would?
Do you plan your life, or just let it come at you? What's been the most helpful thing you've learned about the process?
#lifeplanning #goals #facingfear #plans #brainstorming
Let nothing hold you back from the possibilities your future holds.
We’ve all heard THIS:
“Doing the same things over & over & expecting different results is the definition of insanity”. SO TRUE!!
Change is not EASY but staying unhappy & unfulfilled is much more difficult. You can take my word for it! I have chosen to find my happiness, my purpose & a much better future by welcoming change into my life.
Sometimes it’s terrifying, sometimes it’s uncomfortable and sometimes it’s confusing. But, it’s also very exciting to know that I’m brave & strong enough to do it. When I look back on the past year, I am proud of what I’ve done. ☑️
My goal for this year is to help other women find the strength & bravery to make their own change. To find purpose & happiness in the future & leave the past behind. ☑️
I believe we all have the power to change our future no matter where we are in life. I’ve been through so much heartbreak in my life but I’ll never be the source of my own heartbreak again. I am dedicated to helping others find their path & change their future for the better. ☑️🙌🏻☑️🙌🏻☑️🙌🏻☑️🙌🏻☑️🙌🏻
#jynxwomen #womenhelpingwomen #letgoofthepast #facingfear #findabetterfuture #personaldevelopment #bossbabe #letsdoittogether #changeforyou #womeninbusiness #wellnesscoach #lifecoachforwomen #purposedriven #futureforward
In the evening hours of the downing sun at Uluwatu I met myself in the face of my greatest fears. I was no longer frozen by it, I was freed by it. Through the fire, water, wind and earth I rose with the ether ALIVE! Standing in rapture and awe for life, our world, and my own uniquely blessed spirit. Surfing 7-8ft waves and a few bigger 9-10fters on low tide I awoke that unconquerable part of myself that knows no limits and knows no end. That which dwells within all of us. That which is cut from the fabric of the Gods. I am so grateful to be able to choose how I live. Grateful for the gifts I have been given, grateful to the deep remembering of the power of love and to the freedom of trust. I am grateful to the power of prayer. Grateful to the medicine of practice in all of its forms of mediation. Before this all became realised I was on my knees in prayer to Ganesh, the many Gods, our Mother Earth, it’s elements and to my higher self. With a pure intention I made peace and took ownership of my choices in life. I trust myself with my own life and I trust the universe will support me as I live in my mission here on earth. No hesitation. No fear. By cultivating a courageous spirit I am opening myself to a higher possibility of living. As I stood on the reef I was at peace jumping into the unknown. This same stillness came over me as I put my head down and committed to paddling into the mountains of the sea, relaxed & free flowing. As I start to dissolve into the field and frequency of creation more and more I find myself absent of thoughts. In a state of being. Witnessing myself as part of the whole. Something my friends, family and teachers assist me in attaining. Something that my practice maintains. I have never surfed reefs like I have in this part of the world, with the size, power, potency and perfection - the ocean comes to life. From the depths of the Indian and South Atlantic Oceans the swell marches day and night to display its majesty and might hurling itself over reef. When I leave this earth, I will leave a streak across this sky of unimaginable beauty. One that will send bolts into the seas giving life to all.
It's so good to have loving and healthy self talk, praise yourself when you conquer fears, move through adversity, grow, etc. I recently stepped into something that scared me, like for weeks I felt nauseous and had to talk myself out of not doing it to avoid the awful feelings of fear and nervousness. At some point I just started kind of telling fear to fuck off. Really, in my head, saying, I hear you and I feel you, but I'm NOT quitting! I got this, I'm gonna rock this, and fear, I'm gonna use you to fuel to me! To energize me. I began asking spirit to guide me to show up and glow! To be the brightest I've ever been. I began visualizing myself already on the other side of it, that I had done it, rocked it and really felt amazing about how it went. It was all exhilarating! It was powerful to look fear in the face, and even though it was still there, tell it that I'm not stepping down. After showing up.,. I told myself how proud I was of myself, really really proud for overcoming a very old story. This was one of those moments that you know changes you from this point on and inside out! #selftalk #growth #facingfear #morelovethanfear #grandcanyon #coloradoriver #grandcanyonwest #igotthis
Kali Ma has been on my mind all day - I have been told she is one of my guides right now. I am inspired by her ability to RAGE without giving a fuck.
Healing is not always fun but it is necessary. Where are you in your process of facing, healing, processing and navigating the pain of the Patriarchy and all that has been done to you as a woman, your mother, your grandmothers and women everywhere for thousands of years?
It’s true it is scary BUT it is also totally transformative, full of freedom and growth and expansion ... as long as you aren’t scared of the dark 😜
I connect deeply for a sense of learning, inspiration and courage to the Lineage of Isis which is the same as Kali, Oshun etc. The lover, the mother, the warrior, the protector, the Priestess. We MUST reclaim all parts of ourselves ... we must find those lost parts and bring them back into our consciousness. #facingfears #kali #divinefeminine #divine #divinemasculine #healing #pain #rage #grief #love #growth #notgivingafuck #woman #womanquotes #women #womenempowerment #facingfear #oshun #osun #intuition #trust #healingjourney #isis #priestess #goddess #reclaim #RECLAIMING #consciousness #alignment #release
Fear| One of the most common reasons we end up not doing something is because we are "afraid"to do it.
Today I faced one of my biggest fear. Scuba Diving. The thought of being able to breath underwater scared me. But... today, with the help of my cousin @keredclement
and our wonderful and patient instructor @robburk
we both were able to finish our first scuba diving lesson successfully.
Is there something you have been meaning to do for a while but your fear is getting the best of you? Would love to hear about it.
#mentor #facingfear #scubadiving
“Everyone here belongs to someone.”
While in a lakeside bar this afternoon, I finally met some people from Montana who felt like a breath of fresh air out here. When expressing my difficulty in connecting with people in a rural setting, Judy said one of the most poignant things I’ve heard in a long time, “Everyone in here belongs to someone. They aren’t looking around to make sure everyone has someone.”
What a wildly powerful and true statement. Also, sad. I don’t think this is because the people out here don’t care, but they aren’t used to new people. In California I had great success making friends and dating, in Montana I’ve been treated HORRIBLY by men and not even acknowledged by women.
My conversation with Judy and her husband Bob is the best interaction I’ve had with humans in WEEKS. And while her statement was a little depressing, it’s made me think further on the importance of belonging.
With that being said, I’m happy to announce that SamVanZam is headed back to Oregon. Not forever but at least the month of August.
I do belong to people and visa versa ♥️ It’s just about time I remind myself of that. And for the record, I will be taking IG with me on the journey. As it turns out, a great deal of you are silent travel partners and really do enjoy “tagging along”.
Thank you all for being a part of this journey, without your love and support from afar, I’m just a girl in a bar, who belongs to no one.
A few days days ago I felt my first authentic I Love You towards this life growing inside of me 💕 This last week the big theme surfacing for me has been Getting to the Root of Fear 🌱 This is a theme that I (we all) have spiraled in and out of for probably my entire existence and more consciously the last half decade or so. The fear that tends to surface for me, at it’s core, is a fear of being burned. I recognize this as a deep wound within the matriarchal lineage that all women are deeply impacted by whether we are conscious of it or not. This fear manifests in my life by being afraid to share certain parts of myself in fear that I will be judged or perceived in a way I don’t want to be (my stuff, not your’s), it manifests in the fear that my mother will never accept me (why do I need that validation?) and so I buff, hide, and filter parts of me, it manifests in not believing that I can clearly express the major downloads I receive and therefore shouldn’t even try to, this fear manifests in me not trusting others with my whole self 🌀 The thing with all these fears are that they are self prophesy. I have hidden parts of me and been excommunicated. I have buffed myself proper and still have upset my mother. I have kept my downloads to myself and felt alone in them. These fears truly do not serve me or the healing of the collective wounds. Yet, there are times I feel paralyzed by them. And there are times I face them, rise above them, and feel like I’ve made significant progress in dulling out the lies and expanding in my truth ⚡️I deeply desire to release my “need” for validation from outside community and trusting that when I am expanding with my whole being I will be supported. Truly, I deeply desire to release, once and for all, the collective and personal wound of being burned at the stake. I don’t know the steps, I don’t know the how to’s ... sometimes I think I’ve done it and then the Universe shows me where I still haven’t 🤷♀️😂😭🌌 However, I continue committing and recommitting to this healing. To take steps everyday, no matter how small, no matter in what direction, with intention to dulling the fear and shining the truth 🌟
The result of fear comes out in so many ways- these being just a few of my own personal struggles.
Fear is not something we should run from, but something we are made to walk through, knowing the power we’ve been given, the truth of who we really are.
We are beautifully human- perfectly flawed, and learning to live in unity with ourself, and each other, through a living God of love.
Our destiny lies on the other side of our fear. Choose love and let go.
#facingfear #overcome #strength #loveyourself #lovewhoyouare #godislove #thepoweroflove #destiny #believeinyourself
Do one thing a day that scares you. You won’t regret it 😉 All that you’ll regret are the chances you were too scared to take. Go out there and face fear head on.
Fear is basically your big brother. He’s always by your side afraid that you’ll get hurt, stopping you from trying just in case you make a mistake. Sometimes you just gotta turn around to Fear and say “hey bro I got this”. You might fall, you might get hurt and I guarantee you will make mistakes, but at least you let yourself try. And that’s all the matters.
Live your life and live it well. Look fear in the face and give it a wink! Today I did just that! And you can too 😘
#downhill #biking #facingfear #broigotthis #didntcrash #whistler #blackcomb #trynewthings #bikepark #release #mtb #totalnovice #gottastartsomewhere #prettyinpink
this theme. now is the time for death. death of fears, traumas, all that i’ve been holding onto, all that doesn’t serve me, and don’t stop until you get to rebirth. a happier you.
new moon in cancer, i feel ya.
one year to the fucking day, i pack up and say goodbye to the sweet home i made here, and hello to a new space, alone. my intention with every step - is this what i hold onto? i’ve never lived alone, i’m ready to see what unfolds. #moving #sendbeer #rebirth #facingfear
HEY! This is me today 👆🏻 (getting ready for yoga)
But...Did you ever look like you had it ALL, but felt empty inside?
That’s what happened to me about a year ago...I had a job that on the outside was “perfect” for me, but on the inside I was questioning everything.
This was how I began to question what I was doing with my whole life. I pushed it away for a bit but the feeling was too strong...it overwhelmed me, consumed my thoughts & finally made me admit something: I WASN’T HAPPY IN MY LIFE OR MY JOB.
Being open to listening to what my body & my soul were telling me was the greatest gift I could give myself & the scariest. Listening to your inner voice is so important and most women don’t, they just keep going & going with no real purpose or passion, as I did for over 20 yrs.
It’s amazing to discover what I am meant to do & what will bring me true happiness. I know that my struggles & stories can help others to overcome fear & living without purpose. I am now pursuing my dream of helping women who are stuck & struggling & NOT happy in their life. You don’t have to do it alone & you don’t have to stay in a place that doesn’t fill you with joy! Women helping women is what JYNXwomen is about. I’d love for you to follow my journey & tell me your story 👇🏻
#womenhelpingwomen #letsdoittogether #jynxwomen #admittingyouhaveaproblem #perfectisntperfect #grateful #facingfear #youarenotalone #tellmeyourstory
Face your fears that stand in your way and push through them, overcoming these challenges will get you closer to your goals and everything will fall into place
Photo by Jason Read-Jones
#quotes #facingfear #goals #overcomingobstacles
*Warning long post*
I use to be deathly afraid of the water. When I was 8 years old, I tried swim lessons at the YMCA and failed miserably. The swim instructors didn't understand my inability to swim had everything to do with my fear of water. Have you heard the stereotype "Black people can't swim" sad to say that stereotype has merit. Black children drown 5.5x the rate as other children. Another scary fact, 70 percent of African Americans lack basic swim skills. I told myself last year, I would no longer be ruled by fear. I told myself I will learn how to swim, every week I get out to the pool to learn. I'm still learning guys, my swim coach is amazing and I'm so thankful that I'm facing my fear every week. I mean that is the only way to conquer anxiety. I will write a article about this soon. Facebook, please enjoy this video of me swimming a lap! Something I couldn't do a year ago!
#fitness #inspirational #swimming #blackpeopleswim #blacklivesmatter #blackkidsswim #workout #pool #learninghowtoswim #igotthis #fear #facingfear
Ratschläge geben ist unheimlich einfach, doch lebt man auch selbst so wirklich nach den so locker flockig gegebenen Ratschlägen? Aktuelle Thematik...verlassen der Komfortzone 😂
One of the statues from our food and wine tour at the Ile d'orleans!
I'm priming the pump so-to-speak to get my first book finished. It has not been easy and in this post I open up about the fears that have crippled me and a vision from God I had forgotten about. Thanks for readong it. 😘Link in bio.
#writer #learningtowrite #author #facingfear
That's my girl right there. Just like her mama: she is already juggling a lot at one time, and has some pretty awesome tools to help with big emotions.
She started daycare last week & we've all been in a transition whirlwind. We are experiencing a lot of clingyness (sp?), crying & what feels a little bit like fear of abandonment. After making sure I showered this baby with ALL THE ATTENTION this weekend, I went searching for some help with this fear stuff. I came across a description of Petitgrain in one of my many books that hit the nail on the head. It can help with feelings of anxiety, stress & abandonment issues. Y'all!!!
Anyway, that bottle in O's right hand is her special blend of Petitgrain, Palmarosa & Lemon (with jojoba carrier). We use it in the morning before school to remember that this is an exciting new adventure😃😃😃-- not her mom abandoning her with strangers...😢😢😢
So far, we're both breathing easier. Thank goodness!
Hooray for big new changes that challenge our whole family to grow! Also, hooray for tools to keep these frayed nerves in check. (Oils & 🥂 for me & Trey, oils & cuddles for the baby 😘) #yleos #petitgrain #facingfear #bigemotions #anxiety #daycare #oilybaby #oilymom #ouressentiallife
I believe the little dot in this photo is an angel of mine. She has been charming her way into my dreams and making her presence well known on this completely whimsical leg of my journey.
I miss her so deep in my being some days it can make me stop in my tracks and cry out for her amongst my tears.
But most days, I’m reminded that she lives in me. I get to be the beautiful soul my mother was on this earth. Some days I go hours just pretending to be her, charming those around me and drinking in life with a laugh.
She was a rich soul and believed strongly in the power of connection between worlds. Just as she promised me that she would never stop being an element in my life, I promised never to stop believing the wind, the snowflakes, the sunset and the signs could be her from afar.
Today I believe this dot was an angel of mine.