Tonight I was shown a candid picture of myself from 4 months ago. Everyone said it was a really nice photo. I remember that night, I was feeling good and felt super confident. It was a really fun night!! •
Then I looked at the photo. Instantly, all I could see was my "flaws". I started to think negatively about myself and how I looked, straight away dismissing how I had felt that night.
I thought this because I could see the 15kgs extra I was carrying at that time. •
Why did I see that extra weight as a negative? Why did I think that carrying extra 15kgs of weight made me look ugly and fat? •
I thought all of this despite everyone saying it was a nice picture, despite remembering how I felt that night. It's so twisted!!! •
This is something that I have had to work hard on, self love and gratitude. I'm not always the nicest to myself, but I've come a long way. •
There is 10 months and 42kgs between photos. The first one was taken on Friday night, the second was taken the day on my surgery. •
I'm trying to find ways to build my confidence and love, how do you do this? Affirmations? Self talk? I'd love to know what you do. •