This picture is called 'the truth that lies beneath'...
Everyone has several versions of themselves, the ones we show to others, sugar coated and more socially acceptable, and the versions rarely seen by anybody but ourselves, the flawed, the damaged, the socially unacceptable.. I am a social recluse. I confine myself to my room and I live in the shadows. I do not fit in within the boundaries set by so called society, I dwell alone in isolation and create my own reality within my own little bubble. I do not own a TV, a bed, a computer.. other than cooker, fridge, freezer, shower and lightbulbs, the only technology i have is a cell phone and a Kindle Fire tablet that's dying a slow death. I rarely venture outside my door, I have unpredictable epileptic and non epileptic seizures, agoraphobia, anxiety, emotional instability, ocd, depression, extreme social withdrawal, other labels.. this instagram account is my social life. I have a facebook account with 4 friends on it, but only one or two ever really interact with me. I go for days or weeks without talking to another person.
Sometimes my epilepsy leaves me with semi paralysis or severe speech impediment making life even more fun. My arms are covered in scars, as are my heart and my soul. But despite all this, I am not sad, I have no intentions of expiring any time soon either.
I just keep life super super simple. Is it lonely? Sometimes, but in solitude you find yourself and I am using my solitude to heal my hurts.
There are many factors that have led me to the way of life I now live, I am still processing them all. And it does take time.
This is my truth, this is how I live.
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