#dissociation

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~ FIX ALL MY PROBLEMS ~ Jack wept as he said that he just didn’t know how to resolve anything with women. He was finally getting in touch with how much he had been projecting his need for his mother out into the world and on to women. The realisation that he never got what he needed from her was painful. In the session, his body curled up with the pain of that need. As he allowed himself to feel that need, he became aware of the reality of his relationship with his mother - ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ “I never knew how to resolve anything with my mother. It was her way, or there was no resolution. I go off into my head as I didn’t know what the answer is. It's not my fault. No one can resolve these things with my mother. There’s a part of me that keeps trying. I am still looking for some woman to understand me. I am still looking for a mother. I just so desperately want to be loved by a woman as a mother. Someone who will resolve things with me. The more Jack feels his underlying need for his mother in his sessions the less likely he is to act out that need in the world by picking women or relationships that are similar. Jack is yet to start dating again, but when he does, he will be able to take responsibility for his needs which means he will be less driven to seek the mothering he never got.
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So confused about life right now. I thought that treatment would help me get a clear picture of what my life is supposed to look like but it didn't.
Quick comic about being too far away 👀 #art #myart #drawing #digitalart #comic #depression #dissociation
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Since saying goodbye and moving away from my old home, I’m already feeling the impact of leaving people behind. I’m missing people I didn’t know had such a part of my heart. I keep wanting to reach out and contact them, but I feel like it’s too soon for the amount that I miss them. Then I face the doubt of ‘what if they don’t miss me’. I’m in this new town all alone and with no support to help me through this change. It’s in this place that I feel like I don’t matter. No one knows me in this new place and so the space I take up isn’t necessary. I’m not feeling suicidal...I’m just thinking about how much the space I take up in the world matters both where I moved from if I was ever important to anyone, and here where no one knows me and I have no friends. My thoughts keep going back to my existence and if it’s important at all. Not a fun place to be in, that’s for sure. I don’t know if that really counts as suicidal ideation or not. Have any of you felt like this in either a new place or during a change? - - - - #depression #depressed #anxiety #anxious #panicattacks #anxietyattacks #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #selflove #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealth #livingwithmentalillness #selfharmrecovery #depressionrecovery #anxietyrecovery #recovery #recoveryishard #ptsd #dissociation #cptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #endthestigma #iwillrecover
#Psychology #Philosophy #CognitiveDissonance #ConfirmationBias #Schadenfreude #Sadomasochism #Dissociation #RobertWright #EvolutionaryPsychology #ELizabethFHowell #TheDissociativeMind #TheSocialMatrix #TheMatrix #Congruencism #Peace ☮🌏💙🌍💚🌎☮ Please pardon the language. The Collective Fight to not Know ~ Gas lighting is often the nefarious result of the subconscious belief that autonomous free will can only be attained by robbing it from another. But in reality, it is its antithesis. The Human Condition is to be Schadenfreude and Sadomasochistic Tribalism's Neurological bitch. Longingly. Forelornly. We are rapidly becoming unhinged from evolutionary psychology's concept of reciprocal altruism.. that the golden rule pays dividends, exponentially. Ironically Pandora's Box's iron hinges are rusting from the irony. Its monsters within are less than amused. Id's monsters. That's I D apostrophe S's monsters. Collectively. We think that blocking the light of another will make us shine brighter, it will not. It will only cast a shadow. And that shadow will eat you. It's hungry. It's always hungry. Our subconscious uses bate and tackle. We, unbeknownst to ourselves, through the ninja like daft use of microaggressions, elicit negative reactions. Our internal saboteurs' searching for alpha status to quell storms from past traumas. But the bate and tackle does not the storm abate. It only tightens the sailors knot to the trauma. We think the only way to amuse our muse is to confuse. This does not the big picture storm diffuse. Anxiety is often the toxic exhaust from our minds attempt at maintaining our highly dissociated state. To keep up the payments on our virtual reality ruby and jade colored glasses. Samsung, Apple.. Can't touch that technology. That reality distorting, mind bending, tech. Anxiety is the phenomenalogical, physiologically palpable biproduct of our maintaining the sequestering of inconvenient truths. It's all fun and games, right? Well Alice, Dorothy.. Mr Anderson? A deep subject, no? No? No, Neo? No Neo? Oh, well... Back down the rabbit hole we go. Following the siren's song of The Cave de' Plato.
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dark humour gives me a reason to live. sauce me some o' that ~existential crisis~ por favor TTC commute with @jaylemonade.art because there's nothing like relating to the feeling of *death* amirite kids #exestentialcrisis #doodle #death ? #mentalhealth #mentalillness #toastandjam #darkhumor #downwiththeyouth with that #relatablecontent #subwaydoodle #ttc #dissociation #depression
I always see this quote in relation to career/fitness goals, but I believe it also fits very well in the "healing from trauma" category. Here's why... • It takes YEARS of focused, conscious, dedicated work to heal from trauma. Healing does not come easily but it is SO POSSIBLE for every person. I can't tell you the number of times I beat myself up for not being healed yet; for still struggling so much. Then, when I look back to where I was five years ago, five months ago, or even just five days ago, I realized how much I have truly accomplished on my road to recovery. • ✨Take it one day at a time. ✨ Growth and healing does not happen over night! Your goal should be PROGRESS, not perfection. • Keep progressing, survivors ✊️💕
Sometimes I don’t function very well. My body shuts down and my brain turns to mush. I never really know why. It just happens and I’ve learned to not let it upset me as much as it used to. I used to say I had a bad brain, but she’s doing her best. • • • #fatfeminist #fatactivism #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #depression #dissociation
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For sale. Still in shrink, link in bio. #thedillingerescapeplan #limerentdeath #dissociation #coloredvinyl
CPTSD CONFESSIONS #22 Dissociation is difficult to cope with and even more difficult to try and explain. For years, from very little I remember when I became scared, everything would seem distant as if behind glass, people would be speaking audibly slower and movements would seem odd as if exaggerated. Dissociation takes so many forms and can present differently in different situations. Dissociation is a safety switch, when i was little and would experience it, it was my beautiful, creative mind literally removing me from from whatever I perceived to be dangerous/threatening. Dissociation is scary but is also life saving. Two sides to the coin. #dissociation #derealization #depersonalization #did #cptsd #complexptsd #complexposttraumaticstressdisorder #cptsdrecovery #cptsdawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #depression #anxiety #panicattack #iamoneinfour #timetotalk #MentalHealthMatters #suicideprevention #survivor #recovery #mindfulness #reflection #warrior #trauma #abusesurvivor
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Finished yesterday’s peace on processing our time at the summer fair. I’m happy with how it turned out. Off to bed now, I hope I can fall asleep soon. The last couple of weeks (maybe longer, not sure) I have a lot of flashbacks and intrusive thoughts before I go to bed. I don’t know why it’s those moments they get worse. I hope to discover soon, so maybe I can do something to help myself deal with them. It feels very overwhelming every single night. #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalillnessawareness #dissociation #dissociative #chronicdepression #persistentdepressivedisorder #socialanxietydisorder #instaart #summerfair #funfair #pencildrawing #sketching #arttherapy #ecoline #watercolourart #watercolorart #ecolinewatercolor #ecolinebrushpens #chibidrawing #chibicartoon #brushpens #cartoonyourself
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what in between looks like on busy p good sundays at the shop . ebbing & flowing & anxious for after w D’s family please please no body comments please don’t Pay Attention . . . . am i being present ? sometimes yes sometimes no sometimes idk those times maybe bother me most . #adultswitheds #adultswitheatingdisorders #edfamily #edfam #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #bpd #bpdrecovery #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #exerciseaddiction #orthorexia #depression #anxiety #dissociation #oppositeaction #recoverywin #feelthefearanddoitanyway #norestrictingnoexcuses #eatittobeatit #progressnotperfection #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #mindful #mindfulness
👑what a morning, omg, things are okay, they rlly are, but my brain is like???? wowwwwww😱💖😱💖😱👑
🍥breakfast this morning (after a terrifying convo that went *so* much better than expected, thank you times a million, Rev, seriously, i rlly CANT thank you enough💕🐏🌠👑🌌🌻): bagel, swiss cheese, & some grapes - better late than not at all✌🍥
Too many things Not meant to be Too many things Not meant for me Emotionally numbing right inside of me Turns me reckless, headless there’s no way to be Why is society screaming at me Pleading for sanity can’t you see I want to feel anything but this surreal #poetry #snippet #writingtherapy #dissociation #lost #icantfeelanything #watchingfromtheoutside #pleadingforsanity #crazypunk #blurryvision #sickness #seahorsewashout #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #ptsd #runningaway #lifehasnomeaning #thinkwithyourownmind #creativesoul #nomore #dissociativefuck #onemoreissue #bluebirddrug
Thought I'd do the counter-intuitive thing and take a photo of me for a change instead of a book or a sunflower (although I did manage to sneak a book in.) I've spent the past week exploring anger in my meditation practice and learning how to transform it, which is very hard, and is going to take a lot more work. For some reason life gave me plenty of opportunties to practice this as lots of anger provoking things happened this week. I generally dislike anger as it feels painful in the body, and is a lot like anxiety in its intensity, but it does have the upside of being able to motivate positive action and be used to protect yourself. For many years I avoided getting angry at all out of fear of losing control; either starting to have a panic attack as a result (this often happens when I feel angry), or exploding and accidentally hurting myself or others like my father did (one of my biggest fears). So I shut the feelings down and would dissociate or feel fear instead. But now I'm trying to use anger just enough to motivate and energise me to help change my life and heal. _ I call these: "Man stares out of window awkwardly" and "Man who feels lost would rather be hiding and attempting to get lost in a book about getting lost p.s. Rebecca Solnit is a genius writer." Or "The good times just keep on coming." and "Books are easier to handle than people." _ _ _ #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #health #healthy #mentalillness #mentalillnessawareness #gad #anxiety #anxietydisorder #anxietyattack #panic #panicdisorder #panicattack #dissociation #ptsd #cptsd #agoraphobia #healing #wellbeing #wellness #selflove #selfcare #book #reading #meditation #anger
I just said this to my husband the other day. I either feel too much or nothing at all. I'm either having an emotional flashback and feeling intense emotional pain, or dissociating and feeling nothing at all. #cptsd #dissociation #emotionalflashbacks #cptsdawareness #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabuseawareness #Repost @borderline.bitchx
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your time will come. comparison is pointless // credit: @happynotperfect
I hope you’re having a great day so far 💫 Take care of yourself today and remember that it’s okay to put yourself and your health first // photo: @embiria
[24.06.2018 || 16:45] Das erste Mal im Fitnessstudio. Das erste Mal in meinem Leben im Fitnessstudio. In einem nur für Frauen. Weils anders nicht ginge. Heute Probe Training. War gut. 2 Runden Zirkeltraining. Nette Trainerin. Nicht viel los. Doch nicht so unsportlich wie ich dachte. Bin für 12 Monate inklusive Kurse drin. Disziplin, wo bist du nur. Recovery. Recoverywin. Für ein gesundes Körpergefühl. Für einen gesunden Körper. Gegen die Depression. Gegen die Angststörung. Gegen das Sonntagsgefühl hat es bisher auch geholfen. Ein wesentlicher Schritt on the Road to Recovery. Recoverygoals. Endlich. Endlich wieder. Endlich wieder ein Ziel. Und vielleicht sogar ein Ausgleich. Ein Ventil. Vielleicht. #getfit #getsporty #healthy #gym #fitness #ladyfit #recoverygoals #recoverywin #girlswithdreads #girlswithdreadlocks #bpd #borderline #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdfam #bpdrecovery #selfharm #selfharmscars #depression #anxiety #insomnia #eatingdisorder #edfam #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #dissoziativ #dissociation #svv #therapy #dbtskills
sunday morning . D is driving my jeep • Popcorn’s head is on my lap • Okay is a lot a lot of work • big coffee little iced tea • favorite local place brewed pumpkin spice today ?! mixed w rocky road wow v good • quiet morning rollercoasters • mj in bed soft moments itchy masks not Bad quiet drives • cadgey • dialectic • there is still good • just - . getting to the shop . working till three visiting D’s family . . . #adultswitheds #adultswitheatingdisorders #edfamily #edfam #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #bpd #bpdrecovery #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #exerciseaddiction #orthorexia #depression #anxiety #dissociation #oppositeaction #recoverywin #feelthefearanddoitanyway #norestrictingnoexcuses #eatittobeatit #progressnotperfection #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #mindful #mindfulness
🌠so an UPDATE abt treatment stuff...it's not..going so smoothly, lmao, turns out im losing my doctor at the end of the month due to them no longer taking my poor ppl insurance, so im literally gnna have to start ALL OVER WITH EVERYTHING, completely from square one, and...idk if im still going on that new med or not or ??? like, i rlly have NO IDEA what's going to happen in this amazing and thrilling edge-of-ur-seat soap opera of Me, but im glad y'all are along for the drama✌😂👑😘this is a tough day for me for several reasons, but im rlly hoping things turn out okay...😱😕💕🌠
Me and Jakie💙 I don't think I've ever posted before. Hey guys. Lol. 💕 💕 💕 #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #multiplicity #mentalhealthawareness #osdd #ddnos #mpd
{day in blue} Dear dissociative disorder, I know, I know we’ve known each other pretty much since I am able to walk. I know you’ve been by my side since then, never leaving, never failing me. I know you want me to be grateful. ☁️ But, dear dissociative disorder, although you’ve been with me through all of that, kept a hold of me all this time, although you protected me when I was overtaxed and took care of the emotions I couldn’t handle ...although you did all of those things in order to keep me well, I need to let you go. ☁️ You’re grown so familiar, I don’t know who I am anymore. I can’t imagine a me without you. Yet what I know for sure is that I want to be without you. ☁️ Dear dissociative disorder, thanks for protecting me. Thanks for lifting me up, scooping me in when I NEEDED you. But I don’t need you anymore. ☁️ You’ve occupied lots of space inside my head, space, that I need for myself. ☁️ Dear dissociative disorder. With love ive chosen to forget you. With love I’m choosing to let you go. ☁️ #recovery #recoveryaccount #recoverywins #recoveryishard #depression #recoveryfromdepression #recoverywins #recoveryisworthitall #recoverydiary #depressiondiary #Dissoziation #dissociation #derealisierung #derealisation
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Heute morgen erst bei meinem Freund gewesen und jetzt den Nachmittag bei meiner Tante und ihrem Freund mit Fußball verbringen bevor ich nachher wieder zurück in die Klinik muss. Mir geht es so „naja“, aber das ist ok. Ab morgen sind wieder Therapien und dementsprechend mehr Beschäftigung. #mentalillness #struggle #intensive #anorexia #selfharrm #anxiety #depressed #ptbs #panicattacks #bpd #borderline #grenzgänger #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #staystrong #dissociation #blackwhite #eatingdisorder #recovery #thoughts #feelings #recoveryisworthit #weekend #saturdaymood #moodygrams #football #thinkpositive #smoking
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recently we started creating these "lookboards" and it's actually quite calming and kinda fun because you probably know the struggle of not being able to find a style or let alone an outfit everyone is content with 🤷‍♀️🌑 so apart from that life feels like a switchback still, and tomorrow we've got the last appointment with our therapist for 3 weeks since she's on vacation after that 😐 as always that's a huge trigger to relapse or "just don't care" anymore because "no one is watching" but i'm going to try my best to not let that happen this time 🙏 it's just the constant feeling of not being safe and being unable to rest (mentally) which makes everything harder, but of course giving up is still no option 🌿
"To me, the grounds for hope are simply that we don’t know what will happen next, and that the unlikely and the unimaginable transpire quite regularly." - Rebecca Solnit _ I've been thinking a lot about the things I want to change and one of these is my surname. I've never liked my surname both because it reminds me of my abusive alcoholic father and I think it's a pretty terrible name. I've thought about this for years but always been put off by the paperwork and expenses as well as the hassle it'll cause. But now I've realised I don't think I can stand to have his surname for the rest of my life and I want to change it to something different within the next few years. I'm going to take on another name of my own choosing completely different to any of my family's surnames that I could have chosen. i want to have something that represents me instead of them. _ Another thing I want to change is to heal to a point where I am well enough to support myself financially and not have to live with my mother anymore. I want my own life free from my abusive and selfish family. I've never felt good around my family members due to their uncaring, ignorant, and abusive behaviours as well as all of the past traumas that were caused often by them. I notice how incredibly different and better I feel around healthy and kind people who listen and show care, who aren't constantly criticising people, who can joke and be happy. A lot of how I feel is connected with who I am around. Agoraphobia has stolen my ability to be around good people most of the time. For me getting healthy enough to get away from my family, be around healthy kind people, and being able to support myself, is the ultimate change I want to make. _ _ _ #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #health #healthy #mentalillness #mentalillnessawareness #gad #anxiety #anxietydisorder #anxietyattack #panic #panicdisorder #panicattack #dissociation #ptsd #cptsd #agoraphobia #healing #wellbeing #wellness #motivation #inspiration #rebeccasolnit #hope #change
Im posting this because I do. I keep photographs of quotes in my phone that help me get through tough times. At this moment I have a whole album in my phone full of quotes about the mental illnesses I struggle with on a daily basis! Everyday I have the same thought over & over. Am I living in real life or am I just a figment of someone's imagination? Floating in nonexistenance. Something I think of everyday-- I fear one day I will wake up, and the life that I have created with have all been a dream and I'm sitting In a Institution that my parents were trying to get me into as a teenager. The other fear that I have everyday is that I was never real and than I am someone else's hallucination. That freaks me out alot too. _________________________________________________ #schizophrenic #schizophrenia #psychosis #ocd #gay #lesbian #transgender #schizoidpersonalitydisorder #posttraumaticstressdisorder #ptsd #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #schizophrenia #mentalhealth #mentalillness #edsawareness #ehlersdanlos #autismspectrumdisorder #autstic #psychoticsymptoms #psychotherapy #psychiatrichospital
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