Nada como algumas horas maravilhosas com uma amiga mais do que especial e alguns momentos à noite com minha irmã e meus sobrinhos para curar pelo menos um pouco essa depressão profunda que se instalou em mim. Ter pessoas assim do nosso lado, que nos ouvem, sem apontar o dedo, sem julgar, sem nos diminuir, e nos aconselham é o melhor tratamento para a saúde. Amigos de verdade sabem OUVIR. Gratidão por essas pessoas e esses momentos. Que o Criador devolva infinitamente todo esse amor e carinho.
Nothing like some wonderful hours with a friend more than special and a few moments at night with my sister and my nephews and niece to heal at least a little that deep depression that settled in me. Having people like this on our side, who listen to us, without pointing fingers, without judging, without diminishing, and advising us is the best treatment for health. Real friends know how to HEAR. Gratitude for these people and these moments. May the Creator infinitely return all this love and affection.
#bipolar #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #mooddisorder #mentalillness #transtornobipolar #depressao #psicose #transtornodehumor #deepdepression #ansiedade #psychosis #happiness #psychiatry #friend #sister #love #affection #kindness #bffs #friendship #struggle #battles
Essas fotos não são muito glamourosas, mas é que eu acabei de receber uma notícia que me entristeceu muitoooooo. Fui notificada de que vou necessitar de tratamento quimioterápico contínuo e que estou sofrendo de uma doença decorrente da minha doença autoimune que causa dores horríveis nas minhas articulações e ossos. Comecei a fazer os exames assim que a médica me diagnosticou para darmos início aos procedimentos. Isso pode ter afetado a minha bacia de uma maneira que tem me incapacitado muito. Tá difícil segurar a barra. Além de todos os problemas pelos quais já estou passando e da minha fase depressiva, lidar com isso vai ser um desafio. Agora tenho que lutar muito para não atrofiar nada e para me manter produtiva. Lidar com o Transtorno Bipolar parece até fácil quando tenho que lidar com essas outras coisas. *
These photos are not very glamorous, but I just received some news that saddled me so much. I have been notified that I will need continuous chemotherapy treatment and that I am suffering from an illness resulting from my autoimmune disease that causes horrible pains in my joints and bones. I started taking the exams as soon as the doctor diagnosed me to start the procedures. This may have affected my basin in a way that has crippled me greatly. It's hard to hold the sadness. Aside from all the problems I'm already through and my depressive phase, dealing with it will be a challenge. Now I have to fight hard not to atrophy anything and to stay productive. Dealing with Bipolar Disorder seems easy enough when I have to deal with these other things.
#bipolar #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #tept #tdah #paranoia #mentalillness #transtornobipolar #psicose #transtornodehumor #deepdepression #ansiedade #psychosis #mixedstates #deep #intense #bored #tired #deepanxiety #mixedstates #rapidcycling #exhausted #numb #autoimunedisease #chemotherapy #psoriasis #painful #lafeservicosdiagnosticos #bloodtest #fear #artritis
Hoje é o Dia do Amigo pelo que eu fiquei sabendo... Então, feliz dia do amigo para todos, mas principalmente para os amigos maravilhosos que eu tenho que ficam ao meu lado apesar de todas as merdas que eu faço, todos os surtos que eu tenho, todas as noitadas impublicáveis, todas as fases depressivas em que eu deixo de existir... Ser amigo de alguém com transtorno bipolar, TEPT e TDAH é ser amigo de verdade. Sobraram poucos para eu parabenizar, mas os que sobraram salvam a minha vida e provam serem os melhores amigos constantemente. Obrigada por vocês existirem e apesar de caberem numa mão vocês valem mais do que uma multidão de amigos. Amo vocês!
Today is Friend's day so I heard... So, happy friend's day for all, but especially for the wonderful friends that I have to stay by my side despite all the shit I do, all the outbreaks that I have, all the unpublishable nights, all the depressive phases in which I cease to exist ... To be friends with someone with bipolar disorder, PTSD and ADHD is to be a real friend, a hero. There are only a few left for me to congratulate, but those left over save my life and prove to be best friends constantly. Thank you for existing, and although they fit in just one hand you are worth more than a crowd of friends. Love you!
#bipolar #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #mooddisorder #mentalillness #transtornobipolar #depressao #psicose #transtornodehumor #deepdepression #ansiedade #psychosis #happiness #psychiatry #funnyposts #funnythings #playingalittlebit #laughing #badass #crazy #mad #boldness #friendsday #bffs #ilovemyfriends #friendship
People can try to bring me down all the want. People can be very rude to me all they want. People can hate me. They can try to ruin my life. But guess what?.....I wont let them. I'm not happy rn. Im very depressed. Do I hate myself? Yes. Do I think I'm ugly? Yes. Do I have my own problems? Yes. Will that stop me? NO. All those things will not stop me. Nobody can stop me. I will be who I want to be. I will live my life how I want to. I WILL NOT let anyone tell me what i can and can not do. I will try my best to life my life happily. Do I have alot of people in my life? No. Do I need alot of people in my life to make me happy? No. Do I wish i had friends that care? Yes. Would it be nice to have someone to talk to once in a while. Yes. But the little people I have in my life now and who I talk to keeps me going. Makes me want to get out of bed in the morning. Puts a smile on my face at least once a day. That's all I need.
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To my upcoming fans remember to always love yourself every female isnt built to be a bad bitch just be yourself somebody gone feel it soon always be humble its always somebody whos greater just be the best you can be the struggle dont last forever stay positive and block out any negative energy. Keep ya head up im still dealing with #deepdepression
but i know we all can overcome any obstacles life throws at us im gonna be the living proof this is only the beginning because soon we will be winning btw love everybody who supports me 😘😘❤️❤️😜💁🏽♀️💁🏽♀️ #femaleartist #hiphop
The Suicide of Dorothy Hale
Dorothy Hale was an aspiring American actress, socialite and Ziegfeld showgirl. After her husband was killed in a car accident, she had a few unsuccessful relationship and her career was failing. Left in severe financial trouble and had to live depending on her wealthy friends, she committed suicide in October 21, 1938. She jumped off from the top window of her luxury apartment suite in New York in her favorite black dress with a corsage of small yellow roses.
Clare Boothe Luce, who is Dorothy's close friend and an admirer of Frida Kahlo, also the publisher of the fashion magazine "Vanity Fair", almost immediately commissioned Kahlo to paint a remembrance portrait of their deceased mutual friend with $400. Clare intended to give this portrait to Dorothy's grieving mother as a gift. She presumed Frida Kahlo would paint a normal portrait of Dorothy, which you can hang over the fireplace. But when the painting arrived and unwrapped, Clare was so shocked and almost passed away. She was seriously thinking of destroying it but friends convinced her not to.
This painting is one of Frida's most shocking and controversial painting, which depicted the details of every step of Hale's suicide. It shows Hale standing on the balcony, falling to her death while also lying on the bloody pavement below.
Clare gave the painting to her friend Frank Crowninshield and after Frank passed away his son returned it to Clare's family. After that this painting was left in storage for decades. It was donated it anonymously to the Phoenix Art Museum and is on display over there.
At the time this painting was painted, Frida was going through the separation from Diego and was in deep depression and having thoughts of suicide on her mind. This painting may be a reflection Frida's compassion for women who are driven to despair by male desertion.
I have never hit so low as I did this time (started falling hard 5 months ago approx) I was then living and working abroad, far away from my family and the swedish healthcare system. At first, I didnt realize how or why I was falling, trying desperately to keep my head above the surface and stay "normal". All in all I failed at keeping my shit together and went apeshit bpd and old unprocessed traumas that Ive tried to sweep under the carpet for the last year caught up to me. I was damaged beyond my own comprehension. I also made the terrible mistake of halving my meds, ignorant of effects. My current relationship, that had recently become a distance relationship, ultimately fell apart. That was the final thing that pushed me over the edge and into the abyss. I became full of self loathing but kept acting in ways that was unrational and made me hate myself more and more. Then came the deep depression. Days after days in bed, no appetite, malnourished, drifting between nightmare infested sleep, sobbing and contenplating suicide.That was how most of my days looked like for the last 3 months abroad. My friends constantly tried to cheer me up and get me out, but due to the state I was in, I often declined cus social interaction became excrutiatingly energy draining. I had no energy and isolated myself in my dark mind. Many mornings I woke up shaking and hyperventilating (due to anxiety) And could not go to work at an increasing rate. When I felt I couldnt handle my job anymore I resigned, and used the last bit of my energy to get myself back to Sweden. I had promised my sister and my mother to not commit suicide abroad at least. With tons of effort and help from family and friends I succeeded. However, I did not see myself as a survivor. I felt ashamed, like a failure and a malfunctional being that is not cut out for this life. I thought it was the end. My outlook at life and faith in myself and recovery is slowly changing. I let the picture speak for itself, and Ive learned a valuable lesson. I was a chipped bowl that tried to grow the missing peice back out of sheer willpower. Now Im looking to mend myself properly, with gold 🌟 #bpdrecovery #deepdepression #bpd
сердце качает боль из одной конечности в другую, перемещает по истощенным клеткам утомление. я просто хочу закутаться в свою темную и теплую печаль поодаль ото всех, но я не могу противоречить. я там, где меня хотят видеть, я имитирую присутствие, я играю роль себя из прошлого, из ясных дней.
слова ударяются об висок и разбиваются, падают осколками на колени и тают, капают под стул. а почти не отличимая от настоящей улыбка разрезает лицо от одного уха до другого. «я в порядке», говорит эта кровавая щель. «всё отлично.» #гриммысли #deepdepression #blackandwhitephotography #holga #underthebridgedowntown
If the things that used to bring you joy don’t ease your sense of sadness/numbness, please consider getting help. Depression often creeps up on people slowly and noticing the signs that things aren’t quite right can help you to prevent things from getting worse.
Ever since I started posting about my bpd and depression, I have lost more followers than gained. This only proves how stigmatized mental illness is. People shun, judge and hush you. Is mental illness too uncomfortable to recognize or just impossible to grasp for someone that never experienced something like it? People have a significantly harder time to feel empathy for mental illness than any other illness regardless if they had it or not. Is it just because its not visible physically? #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #breakthestigma #deepdepression #bpdrecovery
Ich Blicke zurück auf die Welt die mich einst Ausstieß, Ich Wandle in ihr doch existier nicht, Erinnert euch nur an mein altes ich....... Mein innerstes brach schon längst in 2 #deepdepression #broken #tokyoghoul
He has left me. Not leaving me but has left. Obviously, I am a patient and he would have many but when you have finally found the right DR it can be devastating when they break up with you.
This is a painful break up and it’s not me. It’s you. You broke up with me through a friend too. Which makes it hurt even more.
I am in a daze at present it really hasn’t sunk in. You were given a better offer and you decided to take it. You didn’t talk to me about how you were feeling, and you always said we would be honest with each other. I took in every word you said, I loved listening to you talk about all the ways you were going to fix my brain. We had so many plans for our future. We were going to start my life over again with you holding the reigns and guiding me towards a more specialised diagnosis. It was going to be your diagnosis. I was all yours. How am I going to survive the long nights at war with the demons knowing that I won’t be able to see you in the morning? How can I trust again, I shared with you the darkest depths of my despair you were the first Dr I did that with. I thought we would be forever. I think it hurts even more that you couldn’t tell me in person. You went through a nurse to the administration manager who gave it to the assistant and then I was told over the phone. I was told we were over for good. You were seeing another practice behind my back and she offered you so much more than my brain could ever give you. I know in time I will understand, but until then I am returning all your records, I’ll leave them at our special meeting spot, you know the one.
Fuck, Deflection of my true feelings with humour and sarcasm…. Here we go again.
#bipolarbullshit #bipolarbeauty #bipolar #deepdepression #depressed #demons #electroconvulsivetherapy #ect #electroshocktherapy #treatment #ptsd #trauma #shattered #stigma #broken #writer #memoryloss #sadness #seriously #brokenhearted #insecurity #sarcasm #humorhelps
I don't know what to say other than how X was such a kind hearted and positive person, he never deserved to die... to many ppl loved him I LOVE HIM, his songs are so inspirational n powerful n meaningful they were touching n helped me through a lot!!! my heart... It feels like I can't feel a thing the painnnn aching through much of my body!! all the edits n rumors spreading across Instagram rlly is touching, and most of all this one I'm pretty sure I cried for a good 10m n still am but I'm praying for him, I'm praying that he will soon wake up!!!😭💔 @xxxtentacion #xxxtentacion #rip #ripxxxtentacion #wearblackforxxxtentacion #gonebutneverforgotten #xxxtentacionedits #sad #deepdepression