In typical stoner fashion, I forgot to weigh my trim before I dumped it into the coconut oil... But wow has it made the most golden oil yet. I can't wait to try it! Into the fridge she goes.
~~Time moves slower in the ER~~
Hubs ended up in the ER last night due to chest pains. They admitted him as a precaution, so we spent the night in the hospital. Many tests later, cardiac was deemed clear, and after his arrival yesterday at 11am, and mine at 1230, we finally left at 4pm today.
Neither of us slept. The hospital room was lovely but the hospital is not a restful place. Too many noises, smells, and vitals checks. Besides that we are both poor sleepers to begin with. And we missed sleeping next to one another, and missed kitty cat snuggles.
Despite that, we made it through. It's what we do, we get through the crappy stuff together.
I'm glad I was able to be there for him; to be the supporter rather than the supported for once.
Of course, my body doesn't let me enjoy it for long. Not the satisfaction of supporting a loved one, or the victory of the hospital stay turning out ok.
Crashing hard now. Trying my damndest to stay present and positive for him. Partly because he needs it and partly because I do.
Really hoping that the appt with my new primary Dr in a couple weeks goes well. Really hoping she'll be one who will listen. I'm so tired of feeling like it's all in my head; even though I know it isn't. I'm so tired of no answers and no one caring enough to look harder.
Just some shots of the snow from yesterday. I have finally experienced a truly authentic upstate New York winter! This year has been brutal. Lots of snow and very cold. My work day is mostly spent in the back of this truck and my body is feeling it. I've been dealing by taking lots of hot showers, soaking in the tub, stretching and doing yoga, and letting myself take the time to nap. Bong rips help too...😧❄️
Endometriosis is an awful disease that 1 in 10 women are living with. I am one of those women. I had a total hysterectomy on December 14, 2017...but it’s not a cure! I still have debilitating pain, fatigue, and headaches.
This illness and all chronic illness cause a ripple effect in our lives. Yes, at times it’s painful in a way I can’t even explain, but it’s so much more! It’s missing out on time with friends and family, because you’re in to much pain to get ready...much less leave the house. It’s leaving early, because you’re just exhausted or in pain to stay. It’s constantly canceling plans. Being embraced, because you feel like you’re always sick, tired, or in pain. It’s being afraid of losing people you love, because they just don’t understand or get tired of “dealing” with you.
It’s a different life than I would have chosen, but it’s my life. I will stay strong and I will fight! I will be an advocate!#endometriosisawarenessmonth2018 #endostrong #endosisters @themightysite
Along with a good dose of codeine, hot lush baths and MCC Pain Slayer are getting me through this whiplash and chronic pain flare 💜💪🏼MCC Pain Slayer is a recent discovery for me but it’s proved amazing for muscle and joint pain relief!
Premenstrual Syndrome (PMS) is a thing. I’d encourage all sceptics to read about it. .
This syndrome is experienced different in every woman and in my case I get it bad. Physiologically it makes me constantly bloated and the acne on my back gets so ugly and painful. But I deal. .
My brain, however, takes a harder toll. I get forgetful, irritated and my self-esteem is practically non-existent. .
I compare myself to women on Instagram and it leaves me feel ugly and fat. So fat. .
Rationally I know I’m average sized. Not fat, not skinny. But I’m not them. Fuck.
So I force myself to go on the mat and reconnect with my body, my self-love and my sensuality. Sometimes you have to work for it, for your confidence. .
Stop comparing yourself to others and start moving and touching your own body. It needs you. ❤️
🎶: idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish 💫
#SelfLove #PMS #BeingAWoman #MentalHealth #Fitness #MoveYourBody #LoveYourBody #BodyPositivity #HealthInspo #Yoga #Yogini #YogaInspo #Flow #SexyFlow #SensualFlow #Freediver #Mermaid #ChronicIllness #ChronicWarrior
• YOU’VE GOT THE MUSIC IN YOU• 📣🎵💋
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This week God spoke to my heart through this song and I danced and sang my heart out. Life, illness, other people can knock me down but I get up again! I won’t give up - I’ve got the music in me! 🎵♥️
Maybe you need to hear that today too♥️ Or maybe you just needed a laugh - my treat😉🕺🏻😆
Have a great weekend filled with music and hope ♥️
#spoonielife #blogger #igetknockeddownbutigetupagain #dancing #singingmyheartout #godspeaks #hope #love #life #grateful #dontmindlookingstupid #thankyougod #danceifyoucan #mykitchen #myimperfectlife #sofiessofa
“But when the night is falling
You cannot find the light
You feel your dreams are dying
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
We only get what we give
This whole damn world, could fall apart
You'll be ok, follow your heart
You're in harms way, I'm right behind
Now say you're mine
Don't let go
I feel the music in you
Don't let go
Hey y’all! I know I’ve been in and out lately. My body is still trying to catch up after surgery (total hysterectomy). My endometriosis has been acting up! I’ve definitely been in a major funk and I’m trying to get myself back on a schedule and in the land of the living 😉 but I’m getting there...slowly, but surely! Life has set backs and rough spots and sometimes it try’s to break us, but I’m strong 💪🏼 I’m working on getting mentally and physically stronger...and I will, because I am a warrior! I just have to remember that I deserve time to heal and rest. I also have to remember that happiness is a choice and Gods got me in his hand!
💛Day 15: What has Endo taught you?💛#theendophotochallenge2018
I have learned so much about myself since being diagnosed. I don’t mourn over the person i once was. I personally do not like this sentiment as I am still very much me. I am the same person I always was. It’s just now I have a chronic illness and that means I have to adapt at times. On a gorgeous day I might want to go for a walk but instead of a few hours walk I’d rethink and do half an hour. Pain free days I welcome with open arms. I will not waste my life wishing/hoping for something else. I have got my head around my diagnoses and I am at peace with it now. I am only 3 weeks post 2nd excision surgery and I know I am going to have some pain free days ahead. They may not last forever and I might have to have surgery again in a few years however I live in hope. I am blessed to have those good days and embrace them fully.
I also try to live in the present and take time each evening to reflect and be thankful for what I’ve achieved that day - even if on that day all I did was get out of bed. I ALWAYS find something good in every day which is very humbling. By living in the present I try not to focus/worry about the future unless it’s something exciting like oooh I don’t know, planning a wedding 😉👩❤️💋👩💜💍😁🎗 #positivevibes #coping #endosisters #endometriosisawareness #endometriosis #endowarrior #chronicillness #chronicpain #chronicwarrior