To choose recovery is to choose to live. Because anything else, and you are dying. It is not a choice to choose recovery, it is many choices. Choices you have to make every single day, nearly every hour. It’s exhausting. Its tempting to give up. To say “i cant do this anymore” . These thoughts are always in the forefront of your brain as you make every single decision. Like to eat or to not. To purge or to not. To binge. To workout. To weigh yourself. To body shame. To body check. To count calories. To measure. To obsess. To go out. To eat. To live. Every time you engage, you are prolonging the path to healing and to a lasting recovery. You are making Ed stronger. Everyone will fail. Everyone will want to give up. Some will give up. Most will relapse. Most will try again. And those who try again will succeed. Those who succeed take what they learn from each time they have failed and apply it to their next attempts. Recovery is hard and is not linear. But no one can force you to recover but yourself, as my therapist would say “no one will hold a gun to your head and tell you to eat, you always have the choice”. Only you can be willing to recover. Only you can choose to live. Don’t wait any longer. We are all capable of recovering.
Hope everyone had a good weekend and is treating their bodies(n brains) with kindness💜
First of all, hi everyone. I created this account to post my progress and to have a place where i can say what is happening to me, in my mind and in my life. Please if you can't stand this just block me, don't report. I'll post thinspo and my own photos and sometimes I'll post the things that i eat. If you need help or something, dm me. I'm from Argentina and I'm 15 years old.
Sometimes i write in English and sometimes in spanish because i like both languages, sorry.
and my name is Guadalupe but people call me Guada.
#ana #thinspo #thinspiration #anorexia #mia #bulimia #ed #eatingdisorder #thin #body #thinbody #fat #food
I don’t know why but although journaling has been a part of my day to day life I haven’t been able to do it for days. The more I don’t do it, the more it stresses me out. I’m constantly in the future writing about the past as if I’m in the present when I’m not because my entries have been slacking. .
On another note, I’ve met this woman at church 3 times and I’m already so attached to her. It’s as if there’s this light switch in my brain that flicks on whenever I even remotely like someone and it’s to the supreme. If this keeps happening years from now, I’m 99% sure I’m gonna be diagnosed with bpd because I relate to all the symptoms and it’s super fucking bad. When I found out that disorder existed it felt like everything clicked. I am in therapy for DBT so let’s hope in the future this won’t be as much as an issue anymore. But yeah, that’s a yikes!! .
On the bright side, in 2 days if everything goes as planned I’ll be heading up to 100 Mile to see my grandparents for three weeks, and then to see my mom and siblings who I miss a lot! So I’ll keep you guys posted 💕
#depression #anxiety #bulimia #anorexia #importance #selflove #care #loveyourself #happiness #happy #food #recovery #meds #medication #awareness #hygeine #happy #mentalhealth #health #love #advocate #happiness #grateful #rant #powerful #womanempowerment #feminist
Today I ate:
Breakfast/lunch~ A small berry smoothie and a Granny Smith apple.
Snack~ 10 crackers with peanut butter, and 1/4 cup of vanilla ice cream
Supper~ A small garden salad (lettuce, tomato, onion, lemon)
I don't think I'll get any exercise in because my family is getting suspicious since I end up going for 4 mile long runs.
June 24 // 8:37. calories~
•coke : 310
•chocolate covered peanuts( i didn’t eat all of them) : 210
•a breakfast of about : 80
Today on the blog 👉 “Oh the Places You’ll Go (If You Let Yourself Go). ✨Link in bio!✨
Someday the day will come when they spell my name right aha ☕️
I'm so drunk lmao I miss this alcohol makes me feel like my actual self. Like my ACTUAL self, behind all the mental illnesses 😊
You know that new program that is available for early access?? Yeah, well it still is & you still have time to be apart of the test group with me. 4 days of workouts, 30-40mins a day of hevaing lifting and HIIT workouts. It will allow you enjoy the other 3 days doing the other things you love to do & get to REST. I am asking YOU to join me, to do this thing with ME. You only have to committ to 4 days a week along with working towards better eating. You got this girl, YOU & ME. WE GOT THIS TOGETHER. Are you ready this time? 🙋🏼♀️💌📥
*If you’re listening or watching this interview, @elizahayse
and I discuss trauma and eating disorders candidly. If you have past trauma or disordered eating, listen at your discretion. I am not a licensed therapist or nutritionist, Eliza contacted me to share her message about anorexia and orthorexia. So we sat down and spoke in-depth about her life and recovery.
You can listen to the interview on most major podcast platforms.
You can watch the interview on the Total Body Training YouTube Or Facebook.
Tread lightly. This will be my theme for the next few days or weeks or months. You know the guy I had a few dates with that I kind of liked... he’s my boyfriend now 💕 my favourite thing is how he makes we want to take care of myself. Because I mean something to him - and the things that mean something to him should be taken well care of and that’s why I want to protect me. I haven’t binged/purged in 2.5 days and I’m keen to see where it goes, right now I don’t feel I need to. He wanted me when I was my “heaviest”, the time we started going out I was well into the purging cycle 2 weeks ago. I enjoy cooking for him and myself as well. I appreciate him very much. I appreciate that he wants to take care of me. But I will tread lightly 💕
#edrecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edawareness #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #beatbulimia #bulimiafighter #bingeeating #binge #bingerecovery #selflove #newlove #bodyimage #bodydismorphia