I don't understand why people tell me "His presence shouldn't bother you anymore". Of course it does. Of course I feel something when I see a boy I loved for so long in public, unexpected. That boy right there was why I spent days locked up inside my room crying, while he found someone else. He's the reason why I don't believe in something as beautiful as love anymore. So yes, I panic when I see him because I don't know how to act like strangers with someone who kissed me and told me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me last summer. Don't blame me for looking away, not because it hurts anymore, but because I can't face someone who walked away from a naïve innocent young girl knowing it would tear her apart. Its not because I'm not over him. Its because I'm not over what he did to someone who looked at him with so much hope and trust and all he did was lie and leave.