Laying on my floor staring at the ceiling. Today I woke up later than I expected, everyone else had already started their day and for some reason I felt stuck somehow.
I work best being the first person awake, I like to wake up and quietly go about my morning routine. When I don't have that I find it hard to feel right.
Today is a lost day. In the way that I feel lost, and I'm thinking about all the loss I've had recently.
I've lost friends, though I've gained perspective. I've lost a beloved pet, but I've gained the chance to be thankful for what I have and be present with those I love. I've lost stability in life, but I've gained opportunities.
It's hard to see loss in a positive way and feel content, but I'm trying.
It's just one of those days.
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