#InternalBattle

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Our internal war with learning to accept ourselves for who we are is enough of a battle...even if you master this, there is no reason to waste your time on battles with others. Just wish them love and light, and keep moving forward. You can only do so much, and then the rest is up to the divine. It will be alright, just do you. 🍃 #internalbattle #dontwasteyourenergy #rumi #lifequotes #wisdom #higherconciousness #raiseyourvibration 💫
Confession: Every night I try and convince myself I don't need to wash my face. Every night I wash is anyways because I KNOW BETTER. Every night I thank myself because my skin feels superior! #glowgetter #Gemini #internalbattle
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Dinner tonight was jacket potato... again another meal I didn't really fancy but just made it as I know my gran would eat it. Even though we all had similar sized potstoes she was going on and on about how big it was which I told her to stop which is a big thing for me but she kept going. So because of this it made it extremely difficult! Today has been shit once again as like the other day I got bailed on. I waited half an hour for my friend as we were suppose to go to Durham but they didn't show and still haven't replied.. fuming is an understatement! Just reinforces that I have no one and no one cares about me! I try so hard to be positive but situations like this just prove that my thinking is right! Having mixed emotions about going to day service.. the more I think about it the more I don't want to go! #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianevorsa #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #recoverywarrior #edfighter #beatana #recoverystruggles #recoveryishard #recoveryistough #internalbattle #mentallyexhausted
Dinner tonight was impulsively made... didn't know what I wanted so just picked up the first thing. To be honest not what I wanted but I was getting into that spiral of not knowing what to have so just stuck with it. Today has been a busy but not busy day if you get me. First off took the dogs out for a walk than had my assessment at IDS which all be starting next week every Monday and Wednesday. I have mixed feelings about this. Part of me is all for it but part of me really doesn't want to go for various reasons. I went here last summer so know the routine, nurses and that but there is a new nurse there and I got such a bad vibe from him. Felt very awkward and that I was wasting his time and just didn't feel comfortable st all. Wish I never agreed to letting him sit in my assessment. At least I know for next time. Another reason is when i had my initial assrssment at the hospital they said there was a long waiting list at least 3 months but then got a call to say there was a space so feel guilty as i have been bumped up the list when there is others who have been waiting longer than me. Just don't feel like it's fair and i am taking ui someone elses space! After came home and had lunch as I didn't want to eat out and then went to Ikea to get some bits and bobs then did the school run. Even though I have done alot I don't feel like what I have done is purposeful. Suppose to be going to Durham tomorrow so we shall see if that happens #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianevorsa #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #recoverywarrior #edfighter #beatana #recoverystruggles #recoveryishard #recoveryistough #edrecovery #recoveryistough #internalbattle #mentallyexhausted #mentallydrained #constantbattle #eatittobeatit #tryingmybest
As I sit to write a compelling caption here, I have nothing.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Given the information come to light over the past two days about my injury back in February, I am beginning to wonder why we put so much trust in the medical field. I respect that they've worked hard to get to where they are, and still continue to do so. Why do so many people fall through the cracks due to medical negligence? Because we're raised to trust doctors and specialists, that's why. If ever you feel that you need a second opinion, go and get it. Heck, I'm up to about seven. Seven opinions before someone would listen and take me seriously.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I haven't spoken publicly too much about what's going on behind the scenes because my battles are just that - my battles. There will be complaints made as needed, but for now my body is still pretty broken and needing rest. (Hello third fracture that was neglected?!) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I'm still working but if I'm not as fast as you expect in replying, please remember that I'm a (tad broken) human and have a family too.
There is aways a few people who doubt you and are betting on you failing! Why do you let them get to you! It is your dream not theirs! AND odds are they are jealous of you and hope you fail just so you don't look better than they do! I just had 2 spots open up for 2 a-hole busters like you! 2 people that are tired of being pushed down by the haters in the world. Haters like your boss/siblings/significant other/friends/parents... Whom ever they are, they don't control your life no more! PM me to see if we are a good match or comment below ⬇⤵⏬ "hey hey" and we will chat. I am in your corner! . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #negativepeople #life #support #fitnessfun #knockyoudown
Dinner tonight was a quick one due to timing of mum coming in late so had falafel, cauliflower rice and broccoli Today has been a total waste- was up at 5 so had a shower and took the girls to school. Went to CPN appoinment to get there and be told did you not get notified it was cancelled....well no otherwise I wouldn't have turned up 🤔 then I was suppose to meet a friend in town but didn't bother texting then was suppose to meet another friend later on and again cancelled! Could have been doing such productive things but instead been sat waiting for responses and got no where! Tomorrow I have my assessment for IDS which I don't even want to go to! #anorexia #anorexianevorsa #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #recoverywarrior #edfighter #beatana #recoverystruggles #recoveryishard #recoveryistough #edrecovery #recoveryistough #recoveryishard #uphillbattle #anapleasegoaway #adultwithed #anapleaseleavemealone #whenwillitstop #edrecovery #recoveryistough #recoveryishard #uphillbattle #anapleasegoaway #adultwithed #internalbattle #mentallyexhausted #mentallydrained #prorecovery #roadtorecovery
Acne sucks 👎🏼 but I’ve changed my perspective on it thanks to my support system ↪️ Marks on my face do not change the beauty that lies within ↪️ it clicked this morning ↪️ having acne does not change who I am and honestly it doesn’t even change my actual FACE either ↪️ I tell myself it’s a flaw but in actuality it’s a red dot that’s going to go away eventually ↪️ I have plenty of more important things to deal with! I cannot and refuse to allow a red dot make me feel ashamed of my appearance 👀 ↪️ I have a body but I am not my body ↪️ I am a strong, kind, smart, loving human being getting up everyday to fight an internal battle. I’m going conquer this war. Goodbye negative self talk👋🏼 #bodydysmorphia #bodyimage #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #cptsdrecovery #warrior #yesican #onedayatatime #acneproblems #acne #appearance #beautylieswithin #proverbs3125 #charmisdeceptive #beautyisfleeting #selflove #selfcare #iamenough #loveyourself #yoga #yogi #yogaeverydamnday #internalbattle #internalfamilysystems
New post #ontheblog .. A week of happy things .. Link in my bio ..
Most of us have something we deal with internally. Keep handling it. You got this. #internalbattle #keepwinning
Dinner tonight I'm having light vanilla soy milk, seafood yellow rice, and a turkey & swiss cheese roll. #ana #anorexic #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #internalbattle #anxiousfornothing #edrecovery edrecoveryfamily #mentalhealthmatters
Thought this was pretty cool and a good representative of this monster always tryna get out. History of Violence Mixtape coming soon! #monster #demons #true #internalbattle #introvert #explode #let #go #snap #release #thepain #warrior #scream #brand #alone #myworld #wanderer #drifter #neighbors #people #realshit #trill #killer
Every morning is a battle finding out in a couple of seconds who, what, where, why and how I am what I am... But I always try to get the best possible version out for me and the world to enjoy 💪🏿♥️ #goodmorning #goodafternoon #timegoesfast #sleptforsolong #neededit #whattodotoday #internalbattle #everyday #who #what #where #how #why #positivemindset #onlyyouknow #staystrong #neverjudge #littleinsight #Munkey #feelliberated #noclothes #naked #bed #tattoo #kiss #beard #mustache
If your goal was to lose weight and or get healthy and it didn't work, what did you do? Did you give up and accept that you failed? OR Did you switch gears and try something new? If I could offee a plan that gives you a lot of success option and a successful meal plan and 24/7 access to support, would you take another shot at your goal of losing weight and get healthy? I have 2 spots that opened up to help people like you, who need to finally have a win against their goals! PM me to see if we are a fit! If not, at least we can be friends! Talk to you soon! Coach Mondor . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #healthy #life #support #fitnessfun #goals
I killed the old me, to find the real me.. #internalbattle Dance to your own rhythm 🌺🙏 #journey #learn #appeciation #letgo #flow #justbe #choose #light #love #moments #dreams #chainedtotherythm #music #katyperry "stumbling around like a wasted zombie " #lovelife
Internal Battle: Only God and myself know the battles that I face So please keep your two cents away from my face I never asked for a single person's help I simply stated the things that I felt I know these thoughts will cause my soul to decompose eventually But instead of criticising what I say, I don't know, maybe take the time to pray for me? I can't control the whispers in my head What I can control is if they'll lead me to my death I keep trying to fight them every single day But it's all in vein when I fight with the lack of faith I've layed my head on the cold ground with tears rolling down my cheeks I've lost the only path that truly sets incarcerated souls free I seek comfort within all my distress But when approached about my sorrows I struggle to confess "I'm fine," "I'm okay," "I'm just tired," is all I've learned to say I'm Just trying to cut pointless conversations short to get you out of my way. Noticed my daily tasks have become so difficult I've bearly started this new day, and I'm already feeling miserable I've got nothing left inside to help me fight no more I've given up my battle with demons and they've left me so cold. - K 🌙 #poetry #internalbattle #depression #staystrong #create
a heart. in a ribcage. pounding. a mind trying to figure out if the butterflies in the stomach are not monsters trying to eat her alive. love breathing for love. a soul figuring out her place in the play, sometimes as an actor, sometimes as an observer as she watches her dreams being crushed by the ghosts of reality. thoughts. messy just as her hair in the morning after a stormy sleepless night. still, she holds herself strong and steady. lingering for truth in a world of loss and lust. making sense of a senseless place, where her most childish self comes to live holding the hand of her very first ever fantasy. a nineteen year old body falling in love with an eight-year-old’s memory. it’s a messy world. yet a wonderful one. #writersofinstagram #writer #messythoughts
Tarot card message of the day: Five of wands (reversed). So if the upright 5 of wands is about competition and battles of the ego, then the reversed could be about the personal competitive battle within...so if you are comparing yourself to others or an unrealistic ideal of yourself, just stop. Time to put down the bat and quit beating yourself up. Let’s also shrink that ego while we’re at it and tell it to STFU. Seriously. #5ofwandsreversed #illdignified #tarot #tarotreading #battles #internalbattle #internalwar #egobattles #cardoftheday #tarotmessageoftheday #tarotcardoftheday #divination #dailymessage #dailydivination #ridersmith #readmycards #readmycardsbitch #readmycardsrenee
Share your advice, maybe someone else needs it right now . . . . . . #inspiration #learning #growth #closure #rallycap #beneficial #internalbattle #battleofyourlife #lifelessons #life #milestone
@samanthakeelysmith creates gorgeous abstract paintings. Everyone who appreciates art, especially abstract art, should give her a follow. #samanthakeelysmith #art #artistsoninstagram #abstractart #ocean #internalbattle
Only you can save yourself
Just think, in 2 weeks, you will start to feel better! And get this! In 4 weeks you will look in the mirror and think hey hey! But the money is in 8 weeks, when people start saying DAAMMMM! LOOK AT YOU! HAVE YOU BEEN WORKING OUT!?!?!? It's all up to you! In 8 weeks you will either be Jeff. OR In 8 weeks you will be DAAAAMMM JEFFFF! I have 2 spots open from people who are in DAAAAMMM mode already! PM me if you want to start today or in DAAAAMMM weeks! We'll chat to see if we are a match :D . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #change #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #daaammmnnn
I’m not normally one to announce to the world my issues...especially in today’s society were you will be made to look like you are just asking for attention. Believe me the last thing I want is attention for my mental heath issues. But, will everything that’s going on in the world today, my mental health has taken a drastic downward spiral...I’ve been exhausted, in pain, outside and inside, all I wanted to do was hide away in my room and cry...but I knew that wasn’t an option...I’m thankful for the friends that I have, the family that loves me and checks up on me, my Angel bean who is a constant light in my otherwise dark life...depression is real, and it’s not sad faces, crying, looking miserable...depression is pretending to be happy, having a smile on when inside you’re screaming, when being so broken inside but on the outside you’re laughing...check on your friends. You never know who is fighting battles they can’t escape #depression #sad #internalbattle #mentalhealth #anxiety #donebeingstrong
Enough thinking it’s so bad, enough dwelling. Our problems are not unique! - It starts in your own head.
You are the master of your own mind. Stop overthinking.
This is gonna be hella preachy, I used to think me being fat was the reason I felt so disconnected from everyone and everything. That was the reason I was scared and felt like what I looked like on the outside wasn’t the me I felt like on the side. I lost weight and realized it wasn’t a fat/thin thing but a being human thing. We are all striving to fill a void. A pain. A loneliness. An emptiness. It’s the human condition. What im saying is there is an ocean of beauty that awaits, from the inside out. Love yourself just as you are in this moment, the whole of you. BODY. MIND. SOUL. You are love thus you are free. #LetGo #awakening #selfcare #selflove #hurt #emptiness #lonely #love #soul #heal #destiny #alchemist #feelings #internalmedicine #internalbattle #beinghuman #soulandbody #balance #thepowerofnow
We all have a purpose in live! That purpose will change throughout your life! If you are not sure what your why is, then lean towards what makes you happy! Lean towards your joys in life! Lean towards what makes you rush to get dressed in the morning. Lean towards what makes you smile! I am here to help you find that purpose! I help people get fit, it makes me happy ☺! I help people feel happy, this makes me happy ☺! I have room for 2 more people in my group. If you feel you need purpose in your life and would like to work on yourself first... PM me or give me your best thumbs 👍up in the comments. Wouldn't it be nice to surround yourself with happy people? Let's talk to see if we are a fit! . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #positivefriends
😈👂🏾"DISTRACTIONS"🙉🙏🏾 ☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰☰ #distractions #goodvsevil #misled #offyourgame #stayfocused #fight #havefaith #overcome #beblessed #internalbattle #mastermind #energy #manifest #value #brand #alkaline #lyrics #hiphop #podcast #lebron #chefcurry #nba #create #king #asseenicolumbus #ohio #greenenergy #sapio #future #motivation
What should I have for breakfast tomorrow? Healthy yogurt or savory Chinese style, that’s the question. #internalbattle #foodislife #70sfashion #vintageearrings #wearejennyfer
Sometimes an open space is all you need to feel free
Anxiety and depression suck but it's usually a silent battle. Did you know that I just came out or a 3 month depressive slump?? You probably didn't, even those closest to me probably had no idea. I'm usually very open about my anxiety and random depression but sometimes I go silent. I don't want to bother people, half the time I feel like no one is actually listening. There are things that I can't or don't want to talk about. And sometimes if I do open up to someone, they take it the wrong way, which turns into a fight and I end up more depressed and anxious. So sometimes silence seems best. Did you know that some mornings or nights after I've taken care of everyone, I will take a shower just so I can cry without anyone knowing? I will stand in the shower and cry. Cry over something that I don't have control over. Cry over something someone said to me and it stung just a little (but I don't tell them that), crying because I read something or watched something that make me want to curl up on a ball. I stand there asking God for guidance, questioning him with tears rolling down my face. You wouldn't know though. Because afterwards, I get out, take my time drying off do that my face can de-puff a little, quickly go to my room, and either get ready for bed or get ready for the day as though nothing happened Sometimes there are people like me, who post lots of encouraging notes, love empowering others, posts lots of selfies (I like selfies... Don't hate), but internally a war is raging. My internal wars are not having control over certain aspects of my life, over analyzing, not feeling like I'm enough, feeling as though I've failed myself, not being where I want to be or had planned to be, and self esteem issues. I've learned to manage both my anxiety and depression w/o medication. But then again you'd never know if I was having a bad day or not. I've become one of the best actresses I know. A friend asked me today how I learned to manage. This was part of my response, "It's a clumsy yet graceful dance ya just gotta figure out. There's no instructions to it, so you just have to figure out what flows best and get rid of the steps that don't fit in."
Yet again we loose another inspiring personality to the suicide epidemic. No one knows others internal battles, depression is a disease. RIP @anthonybourdain #rockstaroftheculinaryworld #bourdain #anthonybourdain #internalbattle
Today I am feeling a little overwhelmed and low after a high yesterday, so I am going to take some time out and appreciate the quietness of my home space.
Being the big 5.oh now, there are tests that us 5.oh dudes must have done! The finger up ypur bumb and the poop samples for three days is well worth it for a piece of mind! It doesn't make you less of a man nor does it make you look like a weirdo. If anything, it will make you a smart person. A person whom cares about their well being. A person that has the best interest in their family. Be smart, be a man! Go get checked out! Your life may be worth it! . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #prostate
Bit behind schedule with training this week and I like to keep my weekends simple... so after another internal battle I did a double session this morning after coaching my KB class. Here’s WOD #1 if my morning. Superset the 4 sets to form 1 round. 30 secs rest and start again. Complete 5 rounds. Now, it may not look like much? But with my knee injury doing box jumps, jump lunges & snatching a 16kg KB again are ALL massive for me after my knee injury! Months of only doing rehab can send most people crazy! So it feels awesome to feel strong again! You can use this workout format and replace with any exercise anywhere people!! Be the best version of YOU at your pace til you reach your destination. YO! = You Own It! Now GO!= Get On It! #kettlebellsnatch #iron #progress #feelsgood #workitout #internalbattle #yourbestself #youmatter #goals #winning
I am curious! Do you enjoy taking all those pills everyday, just to get up and be in pain all day? What if I had something to offer you that help other people just like you get off the meds and started living healthier AND happier, would you be interested? PM me and we will talk. Maybe this will be the start to a beautiful friendship? Or we'll just be good buds! Either way let's chat. . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #takeachance #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #knockyoudown
🐪🐪🐪🐪🐪🐪🐪 Happy hump day! Friendly reminder to love the body your soul is inhabiting 😛✨ • • Fun fact: this photo was taken at my lowest weight since junior high. I decided that I was going to make “skinny” happen, and I did. My whole life I wanted long skinny legs, but was too muscular and stocky. With a lot of brain power and exercising with intent, I finally changed my body!! Unfortunately, it wasn’t all that I thought it would be, and I wasn’t happy.. again. I have been putting weight back on for almost a year and practicing loving myself at every stage and am at an extremely happy place with my body. 💕✊🏼 • A few lessons I learned: -You CAN change your physical appearance with the right mental/physical balance. -I really didn’t WANT to be skinny for myself - I’m glad I experienced it, so I wasn’t wondering my whole life or resenting my body for “not being able to” do what I wanted - but at the end of the day, I am happier with my butt and thighs and manly arms! -Loving myself has made all the difference in my happiness, not my body weight or shape at all. • • • #HumpDay #SelfLove #BodyAwareness #LoveTheSkinYoureIn #StrongNotSkinny #Fitness #Love #Work #Empowering #WeightLoss #Gains #InternalBattle #WereBack #TheCakesAreBackToo #LoveMyself #LoveMyBody #Gratitude #Journey
When we make decisions, there is sometimes a battle inside us between doing what you think you ought to be vs being true to yourself. And when that internal conflict arises, we often go with what we ought to do…. And the more we do that, the more we are disconnected from our true selves. And when that happens it surfaces in our reality in the form of stress, dissatisfaction, feeling of distress, in the area of our lives where we decided to go with what we ought to do. . So don’t be influenced by other people, and listen to your gut feeling. Don’t push away your true thoughts. Don’t go against your values and what you believe in. Do what makes you happy, that makes you satisfied and win that internal battle! . 判断を下すとき、やるべきことに従うか、自分の気持ちに忠実になるかという議論が心の中にある。そして皆よくやるべき事をする方向に進む。でもやるべき事ばかり行い、自分の本当のやりたい気持ちを抑え続けると、忠実な自分と現実の自分の間にずれが出てくる。そうなると、不満、ストレスという形でそのずれが現実に現れる😑 . なので、他人の影響を受けず、自分のガットフィーリングを信用しよう。忠実な思考を押しのけず、自分の価値観に逆らわず、他の人の期待に惑わされず、自分のやりたい事をやろう! . #mailifecoach #coach #coaching #coachingtips #coachingeneva #coachingbusiness #lifetips #lifecoach #lifegoals #lifestyle #lifequotes #motivation #happy #happiness #positivity #internalbattle #quote #expatwife #quotesdaily #trailingspouse #girlboss #entrepreneur #コーチング #ライフコーチ
This is what I call ridiculous! Got my weightlifting done which is almost always followed by cardio. So I get on the treadmill deciding that I'll probably just do 20 minutes. Twenty minutes later my brain and heart begin an internal battle (obviously internal) about my time goal VS there is still 1 more mile to reach 3.1 miles. I don't know who won but 3.1 miles was the end result. They really need to get on the same page!! 😳 #runningisnotfunyet #cardiodone #internalbattle #gotitdone #anytimefitness #fitover40
Today I'm staying in my flat and away from the world. This is okay. Normally I would be filled with guilt that I let my anxiety "win", but today I forgive myself.
I willingly work my arse off everyday so that everyday is a better day for me and the people around me. Too many people I know throw in the towel after a certain age. Are you one of those people or are you the one that is sick and tired of beong sick and tired. I just finished up working with a person who now has her energy back. I have room for 2 more people to join me and we help you get your mojo back! PM me for the deets to see if we are a right fit for one another. . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #throwinginthetowel
Dinner tonight was home comfort- @quorn_uk sausages, beans and potatoes Today has been a bit of an odd day I met up with a friend from school this morning and went for coffee and then went to the shops as she needed some bits and bobs then ended up going to another coffee shop as there was nothing else to do. This threw me off abit as I had two hot drinks which messed up my food plan and confused me as I feel I am only allowed food if it is part of my meal plan and don't feel like I can have 'extras' even though I know deep down somewhere this is ridiculous and one of Ana's stupid rule! Came home around lunch time and just been in a rut since as had nothing to do! Have been so exhausted all day today... my whole body feels like lead where everything feels like so much effort to do. Decided it maybe that I need some fresh air so decided to take the dogs out for a short walk but my arms didn't feel like my arms when I took them out. So came home and sat on the sofa (as don't have a bed and sleeping on the sofa due to loft getting converted). Finding my comparison is getting out of hand since being home. I am constantly comparing my meals and snacks to others and if I have or even have more than them the thoughts are so loud and I can't deal. Sat here having night snack where no one else is eating and found it so hard to eat my food. Got my assessment with ED service tomorrow and so bloody scared for it! My mam can't even be bothered to come and has made a meeting for the same time... typical! #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianevorsa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #recoverywarrior #edfighter #beatana #recoverystruggles #recoveryishard #recoveryistough #edrecovery #recoveryishard #uphillbattle #anapleasegoaway #adultwithed #anapleaseleavemealone #whenwillitstop #tryingtostaypositive #internalbattle #mentallyexhausted
Sometimes life keeps us busy...so busy, in fact, that we forget to take care of ourselves. Today I’m trying to remember that self care is just as important as taking care of my kids. #momlife #selfcare #selfcaresaturday #selfcareisimportant #dontforgetyourself #nevergiveup #keeppushing #depressionwillnotwin #selfie #staypositive #internalbattle #depression #depressionsucks #staystrong #loveyourself #ylooks #nofilter
I haven’t been posting or doing as much lately, because I’ve been fighting an internal battle that has worked it’s way to the outside. We don’t know exactly what this battle has in store for me, but all I can think about is hiking... this was from the last hike with @zbunmon a few days ago, but it feels like months ago... . . . #internalbattle #hiking #mountainside #snowcapped #mountains #coloradomountains #internalstruggle #medicalproblems
The one main treatment for sickle cell crisis is pain killer. Opiates. But the catch is to relieve the pain with out your body getting dependent. In an ideal world yes this would work. But nope. Its difficult to be put on a treatment with such tricky outcomes. Life altering outcomes. Solution: Find a cure. Educate couple to check their genotype early which hopefully reduces the children born with this condition. Do you guys know of any other future solutions . . #withdrawals #meds #medicatedaily #painless #hospitalbag #discovering #invisibleillness
How is the house you call your body doing? Is it serving you well? Do you need to bring it in for a factory upgrade or new parts installed? OR do you need to purchase one of our maintenance packages? Whatever you need, I am here to help! . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #upgrade
Am I standing next to the cannons or in front? Sometimes I feel like I’ve been bombarded with all the things I need to fulfill, with internal pressure and achievement. I choose to be on the side, to have a different perspective, next to a field of flowers. Conflict can’t be avoided but it can be resolved, it’s a matter of vision and patience. Hope, wisdom and acceptance are now the words I focus on, I don’t have to battle myself no more, I let go of the past so life can let me flow into the present.
Happy hump day everyone! 🐫 Breakfast this morning was good old wheetabix made with fortisip... in an odd way I actually prefer using a fortisip than ordinary milk as it is has more flavour but very heavy which is a down side. This is also a little #recoverywin as usually I would wait till everyone in the house has had their breakfast but I have been up so long and there is always a comotion thought it's best to have it when they are still in bed while it is still peaceful So today is my first full day of being home and I am actually dreading it! Got home around 4pm yesterday and by 4.30 I couldn't take it the constant arguments and everything. To make matters worse I haven't even got a bedroom so sleeping on a pully out sofa and clothes are in bin bags. When I got home no one seemed bothered at all and just reinforced the concept of being invalid. Then dinber time came round and usually a comosion starts but I kept saying to myself 'don't start, don't wake Ana, just go with the flow, rice the wave but did this happen course not! I just know if my brother came home everyone would act differently! I asked my man 3 weeks ago to get my summer clothes from the loft down and hasn't done it and my gran has been through all my stuff which I am so pissed at... feel like they are invading my privacy and I have no place where I can take myself away from everyone as I don't have a bedroom! I knew I was going to struggle but this is on a different level... really don't think I can tolerate it for much longer! To make matters worse I am suppose to go for a meal to celebrate me getting a job but I really don't want to go... it was suppose to be the whole family but typical my gran doesn't want to come and various other people so it's just ended up my man aunty and I. I don't even want to go not after the whole experience yesterday at lunch! #anorexia #anorexianevorsa #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #recoverywarrior #edfighter #beatana #recoverystruggles #recoveryishard #recoveryistough #edrecovery #recoveryistough #uphillbattle #recoverystruggles #tryingtostaypositive #internalbattle #mentallyexhausted
Day one! On day 1 of you changing you. You will feel excited, scared, confused and hate! Change is not easy and odds are, you will fall flat on your face. This is life testing your commitment to a different world that you are NOT accustomed to! You are different this time. You have fallen before, but this time, you know how to fall and get back up. You know how to do this! You know that Coach Mondor is in your corner! You know, TOGETHER, you will win this time! How can I help you begin? pm me even if it is to say hey hey! . . . . . . #humble #falling #getbackup #liveagain #strength #trial #win #internalbattle #mindset #commitment #health #happiness #teamwork #setbacks #comebacks #understanding #motivation #fitdad #fitteacher #50nfit #weightlossissues #weighttrain #gravity #ice #life #support #fitnessfun #knockyoudown
Back in the spiral. Wanting to see the other side of things, but know I have a lot of work ahead of me to get there. I’m not sure if I have the energy for it or if its even the right thing to do. #mother #artist #identity #responsibility #motherhood #internalbattle #momguilt #futureuncertain #whatthefuckamidoing
How true this is for me right now. I have a scheduled marathon for this Saturday. I am battling with the decision to run, or not to run. The 3 seizures I’ve had have been during or around exercise. I’ve worked out between and after those episodes and yet I am terrified to run on Saturday. I am not sure what the driver is behind that fear. At the surface, it’s that it will trigger a seizure and my safety will be in question but deeper than that I think lies the fear of not doing as well as I had hoped. Earlier this year I was on my way to increasing my performance so I could Boston Qualify and that feels like it has been sidelined. I need to make a decision and run with it but knowing me that might not happen until Saturday morning 😕#run #runner #marathon #marathoner #runninggoals #epilepsy #internalbattle #decisions #fitness
Full Flower Moon in Sagittarius!🌕 🌟 Inner #tension and external influences can cause you to feel drained #energetically and essentially could misguide you. 🌟 #Gemini , #Sagittarius , #Virgo , and #Pisces will be the most affected. 🌟 Mainly because of the push against the #odds , #challenging you to take a break, and really soak everything in. 🤔 🌟 However, energetically speaking, all you want to do is move forward in your choices. 🌟 This #internalbattle will cause friction and challenges as realistically, all you need to do is... #chill . 🌟 Find a place to quiet your #mind , #body and #soul and let go of any tension that may be resting within your sacred state of #being . 🌟 Work through the tensions and allow internal #peace to occur. 🌟 Find #acceptance in the #presentmoment and embrace the #magic it beholds. 🌟 There are messages waiting to be discovered in these quiet times. #Honoryourself by creating sacred space so you can connect with the #Divine and receive what needs to be shared. 🌟 Now, for #Aries , #Leo , #Libra , and #Aquarius , you #lucky ones will benefit from the energy of the #FullFlowerMoon . 🌺 🌟 How so? 🌟 Finally. 🌟 #Ease of recent challenges will occur... 🌟 Creating a space of #fun . 🌟 I encourage you to engage in things that make you smile and laugh. 😊 🌟 Embrace the magic of the world and go have some fun! 🌟 Overall, for all signs, try your best to find a state of #lovingawareness in all that you do. 🌟 Honor yourself, love yourself, and listen to yourself. 🌟 It's ok to slow down and it's also ok to have some fun. 🌟 So go out there and #conquer whatever task is at hand. 🌕 Happy Full Moon! 🌕
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