I SHOULD NEVER HAVE TOLD MY BEST FRIEND I CUT MYSELF, SHE DID IT TOO NOW. I think i gave her the idea 😭 i cant stop crying my eyes out, why do i keep ruining everything and hurting everyone around me?
i never really tell my best friend anything, and i kinda feel bad about it, because she's always worried and asking what's wrong, but i just cant tell her :( idk it's so hard. i already told her about the cutting and my suicide attempt and since then she's worried the whole time and i dont want to do that to her :(
sing me to sleep, i dont want to wake up on my own anymore //
there's a better world, there's a better place, where i must be
school sucked today !! when u tell ur friends u wanna kms but they think you're joking <<
i feel so terrible and scared today. i haven't slept for more than 2 hours. i want to stay in bed forever :/
i haven't posted on here forever wow.
i have been feeling horrible and suicidal lately, im thinking about using this acc again to put my feelings somewhere, idek.
i kinda hate this acc. i have it for so long now and not a single thing changed. everything got worse. and i feel like im asking for attention or something but its the only place i can rant??? idek. whatever
sometimes you read something someone said and it makes you like really really sad. you don't even know if they meant it that way but you overthink everything. like, why can't they just say it in your face? idk what to think now and it makes me pretty fucking sad. im so done with this shit
i really thought i gave you all but i guess i was wrong
i just want to talk to you the whole time but we aren't and just the fact that i dont know if you're mad or not makes it even worse