Wow. I couldn't have picked a worse guy to have a child with. not like it was even on purpose. Not like I planned this. how could he act like this towards me? I have his fucking child but that doesn't mean shit..
Everything feels wrong. I don't know what I want or what I need. I feel like my entire life is falling apart but on the other hand it is just starting. I don't know whether I'm happy or sad. I feel like I want to kick and scream and destroy everything because I can't hold it together but I can't do that. That would be selfish. Is anyone ever going to help me? I don't know how to help myself.
What's your favorite thing in this world?