This is my letter to my depression
(01:34 am) how to paint a sunset
(02:05 am) sleeping without pills
(02:15 am) drugs to stop my heart from hurting
(02:30 am) dressing cuts (03:34 am) growing lavender plants
(12:56 am) placebo lyrics
(01:11 am) hiding scars
(03:00 am) i’m fine
(03:02 am) right?
(03:56 am) did he have a heart
(04:16 am) poetry for beginners
(04:35 am) he ruined my favorite movie
(04:17 am) black outs
(05:25 am) I shouldn’t be so fucked up
(12:00 am) happy birthday to me
(02:32 am) prophetic dreams
(02:59 am) blue hair
(03:46 am) cheap vodka and plane tickets
(04:20 am) fuck you
To all the people out there who think they know what they are talking about, who give unsolicted advice on things they claim to understand but have no real knoweldge of. To all the people who tell me im not doing the right things, im not tryign hard enough to change my situation or blame me for being in this situation in the first place. To all the people who give advice and claim I dont listen because if I did I wouldnt have any problems right? Ever think maybe I have taken your advice? Yours and everyone elses in this world? But it didnt work? Oh course you dont because you simply tell me I must have been doing it wrong or not giving it my all because your advice is fool proof. I could be happy, successful and function like the rest of you if I just tried. To all the people who invalidate me daily by belittling my struggle and undermining how hard I work every single day to overcome it. Who dont believe I had anythign to deal with in the first place so any troubles I may face is because of my own creation. Those people who insult me in the most significant way possible by doubting my will to be well. For acusing me of wanting to be like this, like I get some sick satisfaction from it! Tell me… what do I gain from being like this? Why would I make everything a thousand times harder than it should be?
Well… they respond, if you were trying at all you would be able to turn your situation around and succeed like the rest of us.
I want you all to know I turn my situation around every second of every day. To you if I was, I would be working, earning money, supporting myself, being sociable and happy… but not every situation can be turned around to those extremes. Just because my glass is always only half full to you, doesnt mean im not topping it up. Each day it begins empty and I use every bit of strength I have to add what little I have at my disposal to it. But that will never be enough for you, hell! Its never enough for me. I yearn to drink from a glass thats full but for some reason my glass is full of holes and I patch them up every day.
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