Guys it's my motherfucking bday! 🎉 finally 17 !!!!
really hating myself tonight.
it's quite typical for people with bpd to push away help, so I'm sure many of you will relate to this 😅
// don't be forced into something. it's your life. live it how you want to live it💕 \\
I had the weirdest day today
Had a great last night with my love😘
like, daily 😂 or multiple times a day 😩
I miss when we all ran around in the water at the mall and everyone looked at us like we're crazy 🌛✨
tw ??? // I binged after hardly eating anything all day but my aunt is downstairs so I couldn't even try to purge so then I did the worst sh I've done in ages (i mainly just do scratching now so I'm not in any danger, don't worry) and I kinda wanna fucking die but it's fine 🙃🙃🙃🙃 #anorexia #edwarrior #edfamily #eatingdisorder #edfam #selfharmmm
I have work tomorrow at 5:30 and I cannot call out and I'm having a severe depressive/anxiety episode tonight like I've literally been staring at the ceiling since 7pm and it's now 11 and I just don't have the motivation to do anything and I'm honestly sobbing thinking about how my life is going to be when I'm older because no one will hire me like this because of how many days I take off or how much I fuck up and honestly I'm just so done right now and I wish I could stop working but then that would make me worse and honestly I don't even know i just cannot deal with this. Having severe mental illnesses is so scary and I'm scared I'll end up on the streets because of them one day.
Comment when done for spam when I wake up 😚
Stars in the sky don't seem to mind, that I can't even get by, my mind is dead inside please someone give Me a reason to survive
I feel like my arms are getting bigger. School starts tomorrow and I really don't wanna goooo.