I have this thing I do... I absorb other people's energy, I'm like this energetic drench sponge. It kills me daily! Even a little more, but actually a whole lot more so, when I can sense their annoyance at me. Though, not because really do often they have valid right or reason to be. Or that I have done anything wrong. Just really, it is the situation, and I, in this equation am worked. Like the gate keeper just doing their thing, and there. Firing line come at me.
Still, not my stuff, theirs... I find myself reciting aloud, and over and over and over and over in my head. Yet still, nothing. There is a reason I don't much tell a lie, without good reason or one of white, to keep magical sort of things alive and well.
To be a good liar, one first must be able to convince themselves of their non truth's. And I am fooling no one. Least of all self, so I've long given up in even trying.
So why when we are like this, can we not maintain an invisible force field to repel them? These people and what we allow them to do to us. Even though really they didn't do anything. But their thoughts translated into feelings expelled through their energy dos everything! Worst thing is... They don't even have a clue.
But if they did.. Would they care anyway.
I tell myself, I don't care... My mind backs me up, it tells the conscious part of me out loud, that I don't care. My body just laughs at me and says, "Can you feel that!!!" So much work still to do. So much work has already been done!
One would be inclined to ask when it ends. But that would be like trying to tell a funny joke! You know, the one you already know the answer to. Then try to break into fake unexpected, spontaneous laughter. It just doesn't happen. At least not without you highlighting the truth you don't want known. Of what you are doing your best to convince yourself, and others around you of, in opposite effect of that desired. #thoughts #feelings #emotional #energy #empath #people #human #relationship #awareness #experience #patterns #challenge #choices #change #transformation #awakening #peace #attitude #selflove #nature #determination #life #health #mentalhealth #awake #practice #journey #goals #writing