It's almost as if hurting me
Is a game.
How many times can your heart be shattered
Until it can't be put back together?
Let's keep going until the color
Drains from her eyes
And the life from her spirit.
~ S.W. *my pic*
I love this SO much...I swear it's getting harder and harder to lose weight. I would give anything to go back to the time when I could lose 7lbs in a week by fasting. Now, since I'm sure it's a combination of the fact that I'm getting older (26 years old) and the fact that I've been struggling with my ed for like 16 years now, but it's been more intense and definitely was really not taking care of my self around the age of 19. And I'm 26 now, so that's 7 years of damn near destroying my body. Diet pills, water pills, laxatives....I took handfuls every day. So yeah I'm fairly certain my metabolism is SHOT from not eating enough and my body being in starvation mode for as long as it was. Cuz now I can't stop gaining weight. And it fucking blows #weightloss #weightgain #anxiety #deppression #mentalhealth #bodydysmorphia #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bdd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #medicated
Talking about how I chase off anxiety over on the blog 🙇♀️🚫 with word games, books & #bujo
(link in bio) 📖🔡📓🖋 Would love to hear your tips!
Today I made the rather arduous trek to the monkey park--arduous not in the sense that the climb was steep, more like I was fighting knee dislocation due to slippery ice. I made it in tact and I spent a couple of hours with wild monkeys. After, I spent hours visiting shrines, food markets, markets, and getting deliberately lost.
I'm already feeling my vacation coming to an end and a strange sort of darkness hovered today. Stress over work projects. Imposter syndrome. Not believing that although I finally have the good fortune of being flush with work, it will all disappear as quickly as it arrived. Part of me doesn't want to go home because there's the reality of facing this, talking myself out of it and past it and moving on.
There's also the annoyance I feel when so many connected writers are complaining that they're not getting enough press while I'm waiting for trade reviews for a book that comes out in less than two months, a book I spent years working on, a book of which I'm afraid will either me misunderstood or not cared about at all.
This is a weird, crappy day. At least I got to see 🐒.
#kyoto #japan #monkeypark #travelgram #travel #traveling #impostersyndrome #anxiety #monkeys
I want my heart to stop so I don't feel fucking anxiety like this 🙃
Healthy eating is a very important part of keeping your mind & body healthy. Go @kashi
for having healthy snacks for my human homies. I'll be sharing some tips on both fitness & nutrition on #FitYorkieFriday
at hopediaries.com. Stay tuned!
🥜🌰 Yum! Doesn't this just make you hungry?
. What's your favorite snack?
. 🎥 from @raindropslime
This is me. I'm the girl who was supposed to work until 8 tonight, but I left early because I had a panic attack. I got so overwhelmed with seeing my schedule for the next three and a half months. But the realization that I wasn't even seeing the full picture yet messed me up. (Two of my classes haven't even started yet, and I'm already feeling like I can't handle all of my work hours and all my classes at the same time.)
I haven't solved my problems yet, but I came home early, got in my pajamas, grabbed some spicy pasta for dinner and chocolate peanut butter ice cream for dessert, and got cozy in bed with Netflix. It's what my brain really needed tonight.
To be perfectly honest, it's times like this when my wish of living away from my parents is a lot stronger. (Yes, we live with my parents for the time being.) I can't cry around them. I can't be upset. I can't show any type of "extreme" emotion around them. It has been that way since I was 10. I'm very good at hiding emotion around family. Hence why my mom calls me the Ice Queen: the whole "ice water running through my veins" thing.
So I stay up late, even though I need to get up early, and I wait for my husband to get home. Now, I can take care of myself and handle things on my own. I did that through some of my toughest moments in my life. But... Josh is the one person who I can cry on every single day if I need to. Aside from my physical work -- the actual writing and reading parts -- he is responsible for me persevering in my degree. He is responsible for me not hurting myself. He is responsible for me seeking a change to better myself mentally and emotionally. He is the best...
I don't know what this was supposed to be about. I don't know why I'm sharing any of this. I just felt the need to post an Expressionistic photo and say some things that make me very vulnerable. Also to say how amazing my husband is. I think I better stop now... Goodnight everyone.
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #thisisme #thighshappen
God morgon 🌟 Mangosmoothie, kiwi och leverpastejknäcke är fina grejer det ☝🏼Vaknade dessutom ångestfri, dags att passa på att fånga dagen, sådär lagom klichéartat ☺️👊🏼👊🏼
DAY 8 - anche se è un gioco da ragazzi, è comunque importante notare che fare esercizio è un modo eccellente di sbarazzarsi dello stress. Trova il tipo di allenamento che fa per te e che ti diverte fare. Alcuni trovano la camminata o la corsa molto rilassante mentre ad altri piace la danza o il sollevamento pesi. Trova l'esercizio fisico che più ti si addice ed aumenta i tuoi battiti cardiaci per 20-30 minuti al giorno. Un modo semplice per aumentare l'esercizio fisico è fare le scale oppure parcheggiare più lontano così che devi fare più strada a piedi. Cerca il modo di camminare e muoverti a casa, a scuola o a lavoro.
#day8 #exercise #training #anxiety #relax #takeiteasy #nostress #newexperience #newme #newyear #badhabit #basta #ansia #joinme #followme
2016 campaign was a huge success and we thank all those involved! There's still a lot of work to be done and we're pushing for 2017. !!!Listen to someone who wants to talk, talk to someone who wants to hear, support someone who needs a hand, and offer one to someone who may not ask!!! Men under 45's greatest danger is themselves - why? @calmzone #suicide #mentalhealth #sideburns
www.thesidesofmarch.com GET INVOLVED 🙏🏽💪🏽👍🏽
We have all been there at least once...creative funk! Keeping this roller bottle in my desk drawer and this blend in the diffuser while working late...
My phone is broken so I like can't take pictures is why I've been gone I've also just been really uninspired lately and unmotivated and not doing too well, I've lost like 100 followers so yeah I dunno I'm getting a new phone though soon, the Samsung Galaxy s4....but, it's from Walmart? Everywhere else it's like 500 but at Walmart it's only like $150, is that like not right? Like is the phone legit? Cuz the price difference is really drastic lol anyone know about phones??
ANXIETY ➵ I've totes got it & I'm totes talking about it, at an upcoming #shiftsession
⚡️I'll be speaking honestly about my own journey (no fluff guaranteed) + the things that have helped me accept & understand my anxiety along the way. I hope all of you amazing Sydney-siders can join me there! February 7th | 7-9pm. $40 / person @ Kingsway Cafe, 9 Resolution Drive, North Caringbah. To register, email email@example.com
I'm super over the acai bowl craze. Fell into the craze but now I'm back to Ye good old smoothies. Apart from acai bowls rarely being fodmap friendly, I have been advised that they're not as good for fat loss as once imagined. Will take a break whilst my gut is healing, but definitely no shying away from a good smoothie in a bowl (especially for dinner 🍴). Banana 🍌 strawberries 🍓 almond milk 🍼 gluten free oats & flaxseed oil topped with cinnamon and coconut sugar mix plus peanut 🥜butter (which sunk to the bottom😋)