There are six days until my first summer exam. Instead of revising, I'm at the beach. Sitting under the silent stars, gazing at the never ending expanse of pitch black, my peripheral rhythmically interrupted by the distant lighthouse, my brain in overdrive and my heart in pieces... I am a keeper of secrets, a vessel of hidden information, a witness to forgotten events, a punchbag for the rage of some and a sponge for the tears of others. Something happened to me lately. An unpleasant surprise. I want to tell someone but I can't. My voice disappears or my fingers seize up. This is the worst secret I have ever kept. It's eating away at me, corroding my very being, breaking my soul apart.
To most people this secret is trivial, a mere blip, something to get past with little to no effort. Easy to forget. Ridiculous to even think about. Except I can't. I can't walk away from this. My mind won't stop thinking about it. My heart physically hurts. My body has never more tense. After everything that has happened, past and lately, worldwide and personally, this is so stupid. Yet here I am. The midnight sky envelopes me in its timeless hug as I sit alone under its silver stars. Unseen. Unheard. . . . #swansea #summer #sea #beach #sand #shell #broken #sky #stars #life #thoughts #thinkingoutloud #kind #cantsleep #secret #heart #unseen #unheard #exams #nofilter